class gathering! (:

had bqq cum christmas celebration at lynette's condo yesterday night! company was great, food was great, and entertainment was even better! lol. had fun laughing away seeing the guys get dunked in the pool, and especially when the formed the alliance thingy! haha, omg i am so sadistic. tsk. anw after bbq, we celebrated dec birthdays with the class cum christmas home baked cake. haha cake with multiple meanings(: then had gift exchange! damn funny also, cos we opened it on the spot, like one by one, so can see all the 'cool' presents x) hah. yup so overall, it was a great night! (: thanks lynette for organising too!

btw, the guys gave the girls a farewell gift each too (: the notes were pretty personal, graduation video was filled with fond memories, and pda production videos just hilarious. lol. quite touched la :'( yup, so thanks for everything, and for bringing joy, fun and laughter to the class! (:

i heart 07S23! glad to be part of it, even though i am just a quiet girl x) haha
and i guess i will never forget this class (:

and once again, i hope that memories won't just stay as memories..

anw, i should able to cycle alr, so shouldn't be afraid anymore (: haha thanks to sensei for helping :P

and get well soon, sarah low!

early x'mas celebration!

had an early christmas celebration with my family and relatives yesterday! haha it was quite enjoyable la. and my nephews and nieces basically stole the limelight for the day x) young children and toddlers are just so cute!! <3 them! jyan, jayden, clarice, evan :) oh, the pass-the-parcel game was so hilarious la! food was great too! haha.

anw christmas is coming up next week! hohoho

Ms Ng's Wedding! =)

went for ms ng's church wedding at trinity christian centre today! haha it's my first church wedding btw! quite a unique and different experience actually, but pleasant nonetheless :) hmm, the wedding vows taken by ms ng and husband were one of extremes, and the concept of extremes was basically the centre of the whole solemnization ceremony. quite intriguing and provocative, i must say. anyway after the ceremony, proceeded for the reception. haha, the food was quite good x) then waited for our turn to photo-take with the beautiful bride and suave groom. haha. hope to get the group pictures soon!


well, may the power of love be with them for the rest of their lives(:


met quite a few 4C2 classmates there. haha, haven't seen them for a longgg time! glad it turned out alright actually! 'cos clare, praba, sarah couldn't make it in the end. lol. but i managed to catch up and socialise a bit i guess :)


took a picture with yihui and lynette! haha all 3 of us are classmates now! amazing eh? x)




oh, and i made a discovery today! the national day song that goes "on the 9th of august is a holiday; we don't have to go to school, we all can play; we are dressed in our best on this special day' hiphip hurray it's national day" right, it is actually invented by hpps and rgps! both schools celebrated national day together back then you see, before rgps moved and henry park colonised their plot of land. so if that was true, outsiders would not know the above song, which is just oh-too-familiar to me! LOL.




psy.chological int.erview tml. sian. hope it will turn out fine.

kettling! =D

went christmas kettling with evelyn today! it's for the salvation army, and we volunteered to help out on one day, for two shifts, and that is TODAY! lol. the location chosen was causeway point (which both of us rarely go heh)

anw, reached woodlands a little late, only to realise with much frustration that the person-in-charge was later! -.- lol. was like waiting with evelyn at metro, then outside delifrance, then at metro again, due to confusions that arose as we desperately tried to make the pot and bells appear. haha so we only started at bout 12; and because we were doing the first shift from 11 to 1, we had help transporting and setting up the erm pot too. it's the stand which holds the pot actually. after setting up, we wore our aprons! which reads: i am a bell-ringer! woots! haha, and ring the bell we did! not as irritating as i thought it would be thankfully :)

heh. yup, then we awaited for kind passer-bys to donate, which was not as frequent as the ringing of the bells of course. you get what i mean yea x) so we thanked and wished every kind soul merry christmas, and gave them a artistic calender in return :) anw, our shortened 1 hour shift still felt quite long. lol! and not long after, yuanqing came to join us! kind her just returned from ocip not long ago. someday, i shall partake in 1 too! :) then, evelyn's friend came to join. haha, one weird and funny guy. after handing over to the lady for the next shift, went for lunch at mos burger. rice burger ftw! haha. ok most part of the lunch break, yuanqing and i were basically listening to evelyn and friend talking and criticising. LOL. but some stuff were quite interesting to know la :P haha.

ok then went back to relieve the lady for our next shift from 3 to 5. time passed faster this time, as we entertained ourselves with silly word games, and number games that we could not think of. lol. anw, the person was late again! so we ended our shift at bout 530. but then again, not really angry la. especially after the lady brought 2 kids to take over us. guess they are really short of volunteers for kettling =/ quite sad la. hmm, overall, today's kettling experience was great! fun actually! :) time well spent no doubt as well! :)

oh, as we were kettling, there was this old lady on wheelchair selling tissue papers nearby us. hmm, how should i phrase this.. i could empathise with her, and her plight. but the compassion was not there; like i did not purchase tissue paper from her. as compared to the other volunteer, who bought the tissue packets, in addition to buying bread from breadtalk for her! quite a few others bought tissue from her as well. oh man, i hope i am not heartless :( it just didn't feel right to help her, somehow. hmm..

so it's ring, ring, ring! :D
(pictures soon!)


ahh twilight, twilight, twilight! may the movie be even better than the book man!

reading the 3rd book eclipse now. trying to slowly savour it so that the fantasy won't end too soon x) lol. and my sis bought all four books. hah, saving me money and hassle :P

and no, it's not just any romance, fantasy story ;) it's so. much. more. yea. haha.

twilight!

and it's dec 18th btw! it got postponed a few mths back. bleagh. well, at least it's showing! :)

GRAD NIGHT' 08

lights, camera, action - 1st december 2008 (:

ahh, what an awesome night! was kinda dreading it at first, but i glad it turned out alright =) hair and make up was nicely done (but must pay la duh :P) dinner was okay, didn't eat much though. and photo taking was blinding, with all the flash and stuff. fun part was the outing after prom! got changed into class tee and wandered around the vicinity (nvm if it's aimlessly, heh) stayed at macs for a while to grab a bite, and played cards. then left and after muchhh deliberation, we walked to espanade i think and rested at a platform area chatting, stoning, just enjoying the night. and it was like 4 plus before we headed back to the hotel room to wash up. some of us rested then, while i couldn't sleep (surprisingly) lol. and guess what, i managed to stay up for the whole night! was expecting to conk out early morn, but i managed not to! heh. anw left for home at bout 7, and slept from 8 to 12.30. haha. what a memorable night, really(:



lazy to upload photos :P all up on facebook anw, haha.

just 2 photos of my beloved class- 07S23 (:






now, i feel that i have really graduated from NJ. and suddenly, i feel quite sad :( how i wish memories are not just memories, but what you can relieve everyday of your life.


i truely wish and pray that the friendships forged can remain as strong as ever. even though i could feel some fading away already =/


people, keep in touch, please (:

updates

outing with evelyn on monday was fun! (: talked alot alot. lol. caught the chiwawa movie, which is ok la (: den shopped a little and bought some prom stuff. so walk and walk, and talk and talk, until very tired. haha but it was worth it la (:

went back to school to help out during guitar on wed and fri. haha, on wed i was super slack, ended up chatting with bern and serene! lol :P so, guilty me promised to help (as in really help) out on fri. which i did! haha went over to guitar 1 and took over the role of SL cos their SLs are not around. haha sense of accomplishment man! :D but then, slacked qutie a bit after going through the mexicano song, where i started chitchatting with charleen. haha, but nvm, at least i did sth! lol! anw that's their last practice alr, no idea when i am going back again really =/ hmm

den went lynette's hse on thurs! had a sumptuous lunch: curry and prawn fritters. yum! haha. den we did what we had to do, and yea, great sense of accomplishment! :D

ok, and so it's another week! haha.

and it's grad nite tml! and class outing afterwards! haha hope it's fun!

okk, off to sleep to save up energy for tml nite (:

tag replies! (sorry for the late replies!) haha
nigo: ok wateva, u end up reading anw also right? :P and i wouldn't call that flying -.- lol
KzTay: u ah, rubbish la. i don't mind ppl reading la. it's jus that i have to know, that's all. lol. aiya, it's not trauma, it's called no guts. haha
stel: yup from 4C2, my classmate lo. ooo, so qiao! haha she very particular bout cleanliness right?
deb: haha thx! hope u are doing fine with yrs too! haha gotta move on! :P
yihui: haha ok la. ya at night cannot see much one :P but got entertainment cos i went during it's opening period i think. haha.
jennings: hiii! haha hope u recover soon! :)


i am still not blogging as frequently. lol.

getting used to being free! lol

yoyoyo, still can't believe that it's all over! haha stale news, but nevertheless it's a huge relief! yea! haha, feels damn weird feeling so free really, heh not that i'm complaining of cos, of cos not! haha!

depsite lamenting bout aches and stuff, i still went for a walk/shop around vivo on wed tgt with van and lynette :P bout a few apparel as part of retail therapy. haha haven't shop since i dunno when! hmm explored almost like the whole gigantic mall! lol. den met the rest of the class for dinner after their sentosa outing. ohh the horrid rain spoilt the whole thing i guess =/ anw ate at the Mussel Guys, though none of us ate mussels! haha ironic eh. then splited after dinner, which was rather anti-climax in comparison to the previous outing, which jamie and i agreed upon. hmm, guess everyone's mood was sorta spoilt by the incessant rain ba. so i headed home, where i waited for eons for bus 61 to come with yihui. seriously, the bus took like forever to come, and when it came, the commuters at vivo boarded the bus and filled up the whole bus stop! like wth -.- not to mention we were both aching and tired, and still had to stand throughout the bus journey. stupid la. haha.

ok visited sarah yesterday together with clare and shu zhen. haven't seen them both for at least a year already o.o haha felt kidna awkward at first, but friends we are, we soon opened up and yea, became friends again! haha ok i don't make sense. anyway visited sarah in sgh. thank god that she's recovering well already; if all goes well, she should be discharged next week :) don't want to comment much here, but all i can say is that she has been a brave and strong girl all this while. the pain she is going through is probably what i can never understand, and she doesn't let it affect her disposition as well, continuously 'entertaining' us with her stories. ahhh, sarah low, must recover soon k! i know you will! (:

hmm, was chatting with nicholas goh last night on msn. quite surprise at his random initiation, even though he insists it's not. lol. but that's not the point of course. the point is, he is actually quite philosophical. not kidding, i got like enlightened by his words, though only momentarily. haha. which also reminds me, that kaizhong is also sometimes like that, making thoughtful comments now and then in sms-es. and in both cases, i would usually go "yea, true" lol. so i now boldly make a postulation that people who act lame are in fact far from lame in the mind. feel free to use mathematical induction to prove this statement true :P haha k joking of course.

hope to blog more frequently now! haha

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omg. amazed and shocked at the same time, lol. thanks guys, really. motivating words, inspirational talk, life lessons. will keep it to heart. thanks again, if u are reading this. and if u are, tag!! (:

and so it has come to an end. finally.

yup, A levels offically ends today (for us PCME-ers). and all i can say is that i am free, at long last. with a longgg awaited holiday for me to slowly enjoy and to make up all that i have lost. haha.

class outing today. went badminton at bishan complex. den lunch at pizza hut j8. den headed to jamie's house, where i had a few rounds of non-gambling like mahjong! lol. quite fun (: after leaving, walked around AMK hub with van and wendy. and now, my right arm and legs ache. LOL. so am not going for traditional sentosa outing tml =/ opps. and also because i haven't gotten over the cycling incident yet. haha.

so many things that i can/wanna do now! woots. shall do a list perhaps :) ahhh hope my holidays would be nicely filled, and that i won't have to fret over nothing to do! wat an irony. ahahhaa.

still surviving (:

one week has passed!

ahhh, mixed feelings lol

gp is kinda screwed really =X the more i think about it, the more i think i am so gonna fail my essay >< so i decided that i shall not dwell on it anymore, at least till the rest of the papers are over. oh manz.

maths was okay(: not that easy, but doable at least.

can't say much for chem and paper 3; still left with paper 1 and 2. really hope both paper 2s will be okay, cos i am only gonna revise physics the morning before the paper in the afternoon, and chem the night before the morning paper the next day. blame econs, lol.

so econs next week back to back O.O kinda scared; hope i am studying it the right way =/

wish all luck for the rest of the papers!


oh and i like fanfan 范玮琪! her songs are nice(: haha k random.

farewell assembly...

haven't been updating lately, as always. haha :P

anyway went back to school for farewell assembly today. last official day as an NJCian; brings about mixed feelings i guess. the assembly itself was quite a disappointment sadly (can't help but comparing with the one at crescent's, which was way better). there weren't chairs, which didn't matter to me at first, until my classmates kept commenting about it, then it struck me that hey, it does matter! lol. it's as though you are not being respected i think. as for the program itself, it was predominantly speeches. haha. but suyi made a speech, a heartwarming one which touched me somehow (: den after which, there was this farewell video. which was quite pathetic sadly. like random clips from everywhere, put together to get a rojak video. sorry if i sound unappreciative, but at least i'm being frank x) den coupled with other admin stuff -.- and received a graduation pin, plus a momento in celebration of the SEA. haha i like. now comes the best part :P reception at the linkway! ahahaha, am i greedy or am i greedy :P lol and farewell is just like that. and the main reason for not being satisfied? it's cos it doesn't like make you feel sad you know, about leaving. hmm...

after farewell, went around taking photos! haha :) i purposely brought a camera some more k!

took random pictures of people and of the school, in memory of my two years at NJ.

some pictures:

(ok, i dun look gd in the pics, but nvm x)

and i will miss 07S23 :'(

ok, so A's are in two weeks time. guess it's time we give it our all and strive for the best!

jiayou my friends! we can do it!

& thx stella for the note and cute clip ((:

and hey, i finally get to take a picture with you alone (:
wasn't my idea, but i'm still happy about it.
thanks for being so spontaneous though, though i was quite embarrassed!
(i know i shouldn't be, it's just a photo, right?)
haha anw, i am still glad i did in the end(:
it's just a photo, but it means a lot to me, somehow.
frenz4eva =)
but from how i reacted, i know i haven't got over you yet. no, not yet.

5 more weeks! =/

haven't been updating lately. too lazy :P anw, got back all prelim results, except for econs case study. super slow la. lol. results are okay i guess, better than expected at least. buttt, can't get complacent of cos. now for the real thing, that's coming up in slightly more than 5 weeks time. or to be more exact, it's in 37 days times O.O wth, which means, no time already. lol. considering the amount of work we are given, and are expected to complete, in aid for our preparation for the big thing. that said, i shouldn't be complaining eh. haha nvm. i am crapping, as always.

lots of stuff to do, more to come i'm sure. argh. even a to-do list will not suffice. lol. and i always spend five minutes trying to decide what to do, which should be given higher priority and stuff. and what am i talking about? homework, practice papers, revision worksheets, for goodness sake. which means now they take up the priorities in my life >< sian

will be spending 2 more weeks in sch, before we go on study leave. working on restructured timetable again, so it's just sch for 3 days, and lib for another 3 days at times. sian, really. lol.

ok, enough of my mundane and boring life. =P

anw, upcoming next two days would be the long-anticipated F1 formula night race. heh, just watched a little of it on tv; practice drives round the tracks. hmm, doesn't seem that exciting actually. lol. maybe it's because the cars (are they called cars? lol) are driven singly, hence can't catch much action. maybe the next two days one would be more exciting! haha.

erm, just finished a book earlier this week. it's The Choice by Nicholas Sparks, one of my favourite authors :) it's a beautiful, sweet and moving novel, though it gets a little draggy at times. and i realised something. it is better if you read the words aloud in your mind, trying to picture the scene, the actions ,the conversation. this will inject life into the story and the words will strike you more strongly, which can then evoke more emotions and feelings from you. lol, that's what i feel at least :)

jiayou people!

认清了真心话, 你就放得下

i dunno =/

kz told me something today, about you.

quite shocked actually.

could this be the reason for your actions...

or would it not have made any difference anyway...

maybe yes, maybe no.

i won't know, would i?



hmm, he said i changed you. did i really?
but it couldn't be...
i dunno...
why so complicated? :(



argh. soo much for not thinking too much ><




but it's a fine divide, soo soo fine.

this is not good

i did something stupid today. at least i think did. sigh.

what's with me anyway. crap.

ended feeling horrible at home, when i could have spent time better outside. argh, and finding excuses to substantiate my stupid decision didn't help either ><

i guess i was afraid. afraid of falling into your trap, over again.

if it was some other person, i'm not sure if i would have done the same. perhaps not, cos' you are not just any other person.

i thought i have gotten over it, somehow. but i guess apparently not.

i conclude that i always think too much, always.

i know you just wanted to go out. i was free, and you knew it. which makes things worse.

i wanted to go actually, but i just can't. somehow, it didn't feel right.

so i'm sorry for being such an idiot, really, though you will not be reading this.

hopefully, you would not take this to heart.

and if there is a next time, i promise not to be the idiot i was today.

but still, whatever it is, i'm sorry.


meanwhile, i shall work towards taking things at face value, as what they are.
have to really stop thinking too much.
just give me a bit more time, and i'm sure i can get over it. :)

再零点零零一公里就可以清醒

Prelims are OVER =D

yes, finally it's over and done with! and i can rest (again)! haha :P studying is really becoming a bore. sian. nvm, shall worry about that later, and just relax and enjoy now :) not gonna hit the books anytime soon (i hope!) although there are some people i know who are actually starting to study alr! like omgee!!

so the past few days have been pretty enjoyable i guess :) ended chem paper on wed, then went out with the class for lunch at cafe cartel plaza sing. oh man, we took ages (like seriously long la) to decide on where and what to eat. and we kept changing our minds too! but anw, we ended settled for cafe cartel, which could accomodate all of us (an amazing 23/24 were present), and which was within our budget (set lunch at just $9.50). haha, so you could consider it a class outing, although all we did was just have lunch together (though u can't consider it to be exactly together, cos we weren't exactly sitting together!) haha ok i know i don't make sense, but yarh.

At Cafe Cartel

anw after lunch, we basically went seperate ways - some girls took a long walk to suntec city, while the guys went i dunno where. lol. so did some window shopping at suntec and marina, nth much that i can remember though. then left for home for a good rest! haha but before that, i went to esplanade library in hope of borrowing some scores, only to realise (after spending a considerable amount of time finding what i wanted) that you could only borrow those if you have nlb premium membership, which apparently charges at $21 a year. ahh -.- what a letdown. although photocopying is allowed, but i did not have a cashcard with me, and have no intention to buy 1 either. so i left the library disappointingly, and a little frustratingly. haha nvm, at least i know now.



on thurs, some of the girls went shopping! haha, met up at far east plaza and we went to make holes in our purses! (ok poor use of words :P) anw, bought some stuff, but i still need more retail therapy! haha. at bout late afternoon, we went to vivo to join the guys for dinner. or rather, that was the original plan, but we ended eating first because our stomachs told us not to wait for the guys. haha :P so we went all the way to vivo to meet the guys for dinner, but ended up eating ourselves anw. haha ok to not sound so pointless, the class reunited at the rooftop! lol. and we played games - truth or dare, and shoot shag marry. haha, that night was really a long time since i had a good, hearty and stomach-hurting laugh. seeing the guys doing all the funny and as they call it - 'throw face' - dares, just can't help but laughing! but i really applaud them for their courage and spontaneity, in front of the public somemore! haha, if it were me, i would never have the guts to do all that man! anw, it's been a long time since the class did anything like this together, and hopefully is won't be the last!

At vivo :)

today, i went to someone's house with some other people to do someting special for somebody =D haha, quite proud of ourselves! den visited je lib after that. haha, to borrow some nice books this time :)


anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY S.LOW! (09/11) hope your prelims results are ok!


okk, it's the weekend up ahead. hope to spend it well! i have got a feeling it's going to be one of the last few carefree days! haha =X


btw, read an email from mr yong earlier on. he said we (his classes) performed below expectations for physics. haha, like so expected la. (i hope against hope that i won't fail :S) but yea, i shan't dwell on it anymore. but the main point is, we won't get to relax for long :( lessons starts next week, following restructured timetable, but still... -.- and on top of that, there will be test! like !#$%^& haha. okok, i know it's for our own good, so i shall complain for only this once! :P anw, to quote him: "The more important 'gift' than talent that a person can possess, is the will to accomplish the impossible. All the way. Give your all for this lap, no matter you are way in front or way behind." yea, just give it our all, and whatever the outcome, at least there will be no regrets, knowing that we have already tried our very best =D

SO JIAYOUUU EVERYONE! GAMBATE!


to my dearest juniors who are busy preparing for their ip assessment week and promos, jiayou too!



sometimes, it all boils down to how we choose to perceive things.
and at times, we just think too much, and burden ourselves with redundant worries.
but then again, life is far from simple.
in fact, it's even more complexing than complex numbers.

haha.

& it's going to be a long post!

ahhhhh, sooooo sooooooo long since i last updated i realised! lol. although it's only been less than a month, but somehow it just felt rather long. yet, i wonder then how it is possible that i feel time is passing way too fast at times. ah nvm, i am just contadicting myself -.-


okk and so the sept hols are here. butt it doesn't feel like the hols at all! must be the awful timing of the exams! haha. think it's cos of the many study days we had, that we did not have to go school, and i would end up studying with caiyun and yuping at je library. speaking of which, the library is really conducive for studying! although time seem to pass even faster in the lib! haha. anw prelims are quite screwed la -.- the only paper i felt was ok and am confident of is maths, the others are just crappy. just hope that i won't score that bad. haiz. anw, all is not lost for physics and chem, i think. still have paper 1 and 2 after hols to sit for. so i guess just have to work harder in hope of salvaging myself. ahahaha. butttt for now, it's time for a good and well deserved rest! been slacking off and doing things which i never found the time to do these few days. oh man, mugging really deprives one of all else -.-


so friday was teachers' day celebrations. went out after maths paper the day before with the girls to imm to grab some gifts from daiso! haha, we scoured the whole place and decided that we should just diy a board each for our lovely teachers using wooden ornaments, which turned out super pretty man! and i think we are super efficient too! like after buying the stuff and all, we sat down at this platform thingy and imm and started doing up the boards publicly. lol luckily there weren't many people around, otherwise we would have invited many stares from around! anw, we spent bout the rest of the afternoon piecing everything together, which is oh so fast la! haha, feel very proud of our final gifts! (not that i contributed to the artistic aspect la, since i am soo not artistic, but at least i helped out with the manual work =P)


so here's the boards which we went great lengths to make:

and as u can see, they are empty still. and the girls were joking about comparing the before and after looks of the boards, after referring to after the boards are filled with messages. cos once the guys write on it, their artistic handwriting would just beautify the boards completely. haha right. ok la just kidding =P afterall, i won't say my handwriting is all that good also (in fact, i think i need to really improve it la) haha tsk.

anw, the very next day, we wrote the msgs on early morning. and here's how the boards look like finally:

it didn't turn out all that bad afterall la =D just that i dun understand why the guys can't just choose an ink colour that matched the background colour better -.- while doing this, we skipped assembly and aces day workout. lol. only went for the concert, which i was highly expecting, but ended up to be quite a bore and disappointing. ended up ponning the concert with the class after we had to change venue due to the rain. and shockingly, some of the teachers even pon the concert la! lol, stupid. anw, presented the gifts to our beloved teachers, and took a pic with them! feel kinda sad actually. the thought of being on my own still scares me a little. and they will be the last memories of teachers i would have in my education phase i guess. and this will be the last teachers' day celeb too! haha, i am getting nolstagic. anw, to all the deserving teachers out there: HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!


and after teachers day, went out for a mini girls outing with jamie, lynette, yi hui, wendy and vanessa at vivo. haha, finally got a chance to relax and shop around! (omg, i reall sound deprived, haha) good to have the carefree feeling back again after mugging so much for prelims the past weeks, and just lazing around and chatting without having to worry bout anything for once. seriously, can't wait for a levels to be over man! (though prelims are not even over yet la, haha). anw, i bought stuff and watched WALL-E. the movie was pretty good i guess, better than expected at least (we were joking bout why are we paying 8.50 to watch a cartoon that is :p) the plot was a little far fetch la, but it was actually quite touching, for a show mostly bout robots. and what's amazing is that even though there was hardly any talking where the robot scenes were concerned, but it still managed the convey the intended meaning and feelings of the robots, which was pretty cool. so no wonder the movie got such a high rating!

okk, i am rotting at home on a beautiful sunday afternoon, which i would most probably been trying to myself awake cramming in the past weeks. but, today i am soo energetic! haha, not a feeling of lethargy depsite sleeping early this morn! haha, and i conclude under amy's scientific research on sleepyness syndrome that studying no doubt puts you to sleep. so next time, when u can't fall asleep, just head for the books (must be those school text of cos), and i guarantee you would be knocked out ten times faster than if u had taken a sleeping pill! ahahaha. ok lame i noe.

feel kinda bored and restless now actually, like as studying was the main thing revolving around my life, and now that i am not studying, i am at a lost at what to do. lol no life la omg. but i am not a mugger k! haha. ok to not sound so pathetic, i played the guitar (trying out charleen's book, ha!) and missed playing the guitar loads, did a little of orgami (can't believe i actually bought the origami paper and book, haha), played the psp, and finished a rather thick book 'p.s. i love you' (quite ok, may catch the movie online later, haha), this weekend =D cool eh! haha. watched alot of tv as well; was glued to the hongkong serial shui yue feng yun this morning! haha, quite an interesting show (local tv shows really have to buck up ah) haha.



haha, suddenly my posts have so many pictures eh! the result of being too freeee. haha had better enjoy the remnants of my free life, before i return to the life of mugging. tsk. meanwhile, had been slacking around doing nothing much, yet still enjoying life. haha. it's a great, yet weird feeling. it's like u know u can relax, but yet can't go all out in relaxing, cos it seems over, but in fact, it is not over yet. haha what is this man. the administration is ingenious man. ha.


anw, been thinking bout some stuff lately. i think that sometimes, i have been too caught up with studies and other stuff that i have neglected my friends :( in fact, the only ones that i see regularly are my classmates, and perhaps cy and yp during our study sessions. haiz. on my juniors side, there's evelyn and yuanqing from cres (nice duo), and charleen, jennings, serene, clara, bern they all from guitar (miss them loads!). as for my fellow peers, there's stella, kellie and waileng (who are my best interact and lap mates), and sarah and emily (my best sec sch frens in ac now). and for seniors like debby whom i don't even see now :( and yea, me being an introvert and all, it's not like i have many friends, and in fact i don't. hence, my heart tells me i should go the extra mile to sustain the friendships that i already have, and not wait for them to slip out of my grasp. but yet, i just can't take the initiative somehow (not a very verbal person either, can only open up to those i am really close with). but who am i anw? at times, i am not even there when they need someone to tide them their low points. i am really a horrible friend i guess :( and at times, when i know they are feeling down, i can't even give them a good consolation, and the comforting words i can offer just sound soo unnatural and distant somehow. and yea, sometimes i can tell that they are putting on a facade, hiding behind their cheerful surface, but yet, there's nothing that i can do to help them, and i just can't help but feeling disappointed at myself. i did mention before that i must learn to treasure my friends more, even since i almost lost an impt friendship. but yet, i find myself doing the very same thing again, neglecting those around me. although this time, i am a little bit more proactive. but i guess it's not enough... i really don't know. i just hope that i am being over-sensitive, and that my worries are unfounded. reassurance, perhaps that's what i need.


okk, i have typed a pretty long post i realised, the result of cramming everthing into one post sia. haha. no idea when i will be back again =P

guitar seniors farewell! =)

(p.s. haha finally have the time to complete my long overdue post =P hence the date up there!)

08/08/08

what a memorable day indeed(: and if it's not too late, just wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to all our juniors who managed to present this farewell to us, depsite under great time constraints. so yea, kudos to u all! thanks really, for rounding up our guitar life soo heartwarmingly :') will miss u all juniors and graduating seniors, and njguit, loads! <3

SL proud to be i guess =)

and may the pictures bring back fond memories of the times we had tgt (:

(sorry to those i did not have a chance to take a pic with; a regret certainly =/)

and yes! completed after soooo long. haha. but as the saying goes, better late than never eh =P

yes, an update! =D

i'm finally squeezing in some time to update :P

time is really passing by like a mag-lev train man =X it felt like just yesterday when we had our concert. and speaking of which, concert at esplanade was awesome! we were great, the alumni were great, and the audience were great too! haha. anyway the period after the concert was still guitar filled. within a short span of about 1 week after the concert, we conducted EXCO interview over 2 days, and had EXCO election speech day yesterday! are we amazing or are we amazing?! haha jkjk. and today, we decided on the final new EXCO positions :D this therefore meant that the retiring exco (yes, sadly) would be stepping down on handover ceremony coming monday! ahh! i don't know how i should/ would feel =/ but i guess i will feel relieved (when the reality of prelims in two weeks sinks in finally), yet at the same time sad (afterall it officially marks the end of guitar for me).

have also been pretty busy the past week doing caal update on sps. it's super tedious, having to key in reflections for every single activity. submitted my 3 sgc write ups just. hope everything will get approved so i wouldn't have to make any changes :P haha

oh, this week marks the start of our restructured time table, where we don't have lessons on thurs and fri, so that we will have more time to study. haha, right..

ok, so prelims are in exactly 19 days as of today. i am scared :(



p.s.
we are good friends la! don't anyhow think ah u all (: haha

it's been a year...

jennings reminded me of something today.

it's exactly a year since i took over as Guitar 3 Section Leader and became part of the 10 people strong EXCO. not that i'm stepping down yet, but it still officially marks 1 year of term i guess(:

over the past one year, many things happened, more than what i can remember. there were good, happy, enjoyable times, and there were also upsetting, stressful moments. but one can't have the best of both worlds, can he? so i won't remove those bad times from my memory, 'cos they will make me cherish those wonderful memories even more.

whether or not i had fulfilled my duties as an SL, i guess it is not for me to say. but, i really hope i did, although i am already disappointed in myself for just not putting in more effort to go the extra mile, as well as not carrying out a few promises which i made. oh wells =/ just hope that i had made a difference in the lives of my fellow members, as well as my other fellow guitarists.

and i must admit, guitar as cca by itself would not have been made possible without the passion and dedication of the guitarists. in fact, they are the ones that make me look forward to guitar practices, especially after a boring day of lessons. i would definitely miss them so much after seniors' farewell :(

now that 1 year has passed, i would say, now, that i do not regret applying and then stepping up as an SL. in fact, it enriches my guitar journey by 101% i'm sure. although sometimes, i tend to reflect over whether i had made the right choice, whether all that i'm doing is worth it, whether the sacrifices were worth it, but i kept reassuring myself that what i'm doing is right. and i'm glad i did; otherwise, i may just as well give up.

come to think of it, i think at least half of my jc life revolves around guitar. it's just amazing i guess(: guitar is life! haha

i love guitar((: really!

jiayou for esplanade concert!





today started off okay, then gradually my mood sank and sank (because of you!), butttt, it got lifted up (because of you again!), so i'm (= again.

somehow, i dunno how, u just made my day. (:

anw, feel so useless when i can't help u with your troubles, but don't worry too much yea? and seeing u so tired i xin tong :( must rest more! =)

(although u won't be reading this)

GUITAR CONCERT! =D

concert was a blast! can't really believe it's over alr! i enjoyed myeself to the fullest, and i'm sure all of us did, including the audience(: we smiled to the music, we swayed with the music, and most of all, we felt the music in us; at least i did :D a big thank you to all who came down to support us, and me! haha.

to jamie, yi hui, stella, wai leng, evelyn and yuanqing, thanks for cheering for me during the concert, and for your beautiful roses and lovely messages(: really appreciate your presence there(: <3 ya loads! glad you all enjoyed youself at the concert!

(haha, i realised i got too high at the end of the concert, that i ended up blabbering rubbish to my frens. ahhh dieee! haha)

and to guitar 3! good job guys! we tried our best alr, i'm sure(:

to postwomen! we rock! ahhhh i'll miss playing postman like madddd!

to the excos! omg, we did awesome during tears in heaven! one song out of the many songs that i enjoyed best! at least all our practices are didn't go in vain(:

and to yu ping, shan and the rest of the excos, for all the effort and hard work put in to make this whole concert a success!

ahhh, now i miss every single moment of the concert :(

nvm, there's still the esplanade concert! so jiayou guitarist! can't wait to hear the alumni pieces as well!

haha njguit rocks!

& i heart njguit(:



on a side note, my cheeky classmates drew this:

and i like it alot! ( the drawing k!)

haha, if only.. (:

haha fine i shall update!

2 weeks into term 3 alr =/ so freaking fast! tsktsk

it's youth day today! or rather youth day holiday off in-lieu. haha and guess wat? the COOL guitarists spent it in NJ! HAHA so much for it being a holiday for us. but it's okay, since it's for the upcoming concert, and hanging out with guitarists is always fun(: no better way to spend my last youth day hol as well! =D

can't really remember what happened in the past 2 weeks. hmm. highlight would be the getting back of common tests results? haha, fared relatively ok la, so i should be happy(: then, had lesson after lesson, day after day, a routine that keeps repeating -.- sian. i needa study! not mug btw. haha, i find myself beginning to dislike the word 'mug', which has more and more negative connotations. lol random.

anw, can't believe guitar concert is just this friday! O.O in just a mere 4 days time! omg! intensive practices this week! haha, will be going home super late on tues and wed, and i kinda look forward to it, haha weird me. really wish to savour every moment that is left of my time in the ensemble, cos i'm sure i will miss is soo soo much when i step down :( so must really cherish the time that's left.

anw, there was this one period (sometime last week) when i really felt that i failed in my role as an SL; the thought just sort of sinked into me at that moment, and i can't help but feel that i have let my members down :( it made me think whether i have really tried, whether i have put in my fullest effort coaching my members. and i guess i tried, but just not enough. can't believe i took 1 full year to realise this; when it's all already too late. but still, i'll continue to fulfill my duty as an SL as my term draws to an end, and not leave anymore regrets. i'm also grateful to my wonderful section 3 members for their encouragement and affirmation they gave me(: it makes all the difference, really. ty so much(:

was feeling kinda uptight today during sectionals, haha. was quite worried for guitar 3 as the ip2s just returned from obs, so i guess i came down a little to harsh on you all =/ ahh sorry! especially to wanghan, haha, for being so unsympathetic. i kept like saying 'why cannot play', ' i thought you said you would practice', until he gave a strong reply of 'can't you see that i'm trying!' wah, shocked me. upset me a little too. after that, i realised i was partly in the wrong, afterall he's already trying so hard, yet here i am rubbing salt into wound, and not even a word of encouragement. wat an SL man -.-nvm, at least i realised my mistake, and hope not to repeat in again. sorry again, guitar 3!

oh, congrats to exam group for achieving DISTINCTION!!! njguit rocks!

and as mentioned, guitar concert is this friday!!!!!! String Theory - Love Picaresque!!! hope it will be a SUCCESS. or rather, it WILL be a SUCCESS, yea it WILL. just give our all, and whatever it is, we'll have no regrets(:

ahh.. excited =D
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a guy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

blog's back.. sch's reopening..

blog is temporarily shut-down no more i guess. haha. it's too accessible alr la. tsktsk.

anw, this hols has been rather eventful(: almost half was devoted to guitar! but it's okay la(: then went out quite a lot too; outing with evelyn and yuanqing, outing with sarah and evelyn =D not to forget jennings' b'day! and guitar lunches, outings, and crapping times spent with guitar mates...<3

buttt, one thing that didn't proceed well was my completion of my hw, and mugging. as mentioned before, my productivity rate is pathetic. the latter is out of question needless to say, not when the former isn't even accomplished :((( sian, most unproductive holidays in terms of acads. i seroiusly must kick the awful habit of stoning mann!

anw, guitar concerts up next month! showcasing months and months of hard work :P hahaa

so sch's reopening tml :( getting back results i guess. ahh wish me luck =/


new term, new start. let it be good(:

失望，有时候也是一种幸福，因为有所期待所以才会失望。
因为有爱，才会有期待，所以纵使失望，也是一种幸福，虽然这种幸福有点痛。

随缘吧!

updates!

haha omg people ( u know who u are :P ) whom i never knew bothered reading my blog actually confessed that they did! haha oh man, tag people, dun remain as mysterious readers! haha

ok so it's the end of the 2nd week of june hols alr! ahh wth so freaking fast! :( and i haven't started proper studying yet! even hw is becoming so difficult, in the sense that my productivity rate has dropped to an all-time low, not kidding. i can do one question and end up stoning no idea how many times in between. it's like your mind would subconciously drift off to other stuff, as you try to get yourself back to the stupid qn time and time again. and the result of this is that you will take so super long to finish a simple task that you finally get so frustrated and give up altogether. HAHA -.- currently i am at the frustrated state, seriously hope that my concentration improves, otherwise... i will get roasted la. haha

so this week has been rather fulfilling and exciting i would say =D

highlight was guitar camp (tues - thurs) of cos! first day was nth much, cos i miss the cleaning up part (haha went for some psycho test :P), but the bad thing was that i did not get my guitar maintained! ahh, still using the old strings and my guitar remains unpolished :( den second day was the fun one! had lotsa activities: chords enrichment, various guitar contests, bonding games, bbq, stayover etc. haha i was in food comm, and i think i failed la, cos i ordered too much food (even after much discussion with the esco) haha. in the end had quite a lot of leftovers =/ which had to trouble some guitarist to da-pao back home, while the remainders after that eventually ended up in the bin. haha damn wasteful, considering the high inflation rate + people are starving in other countries =/ haha guilty guilty! anw, stayed over at the chalet, with some others, had some random night activites den slept at 4 and woke up at 8. lol my record leh. next day checked out, den home sweet home, only to realise mingyang stayed near me -.- haha, but surprisingly, we never met each other in the vicinity before that! that was the first time! haha kinda strange man. so to sum it all up, guit camp 2008 was awesome! <3

den friday was the harmoc concert preview in sch! haha went together with charleen, and we pei-ed each other all the way from after lunch with caiyun (which is so very funny cos she was obsessed with some women magazine, and kept talking bout her dream guy :P) till after the concert ended! haha talk about one on one date eh :P anw, managed to occupy ourselves pretty well(: haha i lazy to blog, can read bout it on charleen's new blog! haha silly girl managed to find my blog and read it! and she then created a blog for herself! haha. anw, harmoc concert was good! good job to jamie, ngiam, nic lim. haha class harmoc people, went to support jamie in particular :P and guitarists for their cool medly with harmoc! well done people, and all the best for monday's performance!

very next day was band concert at vch! met up with class people for dinner at like 5.30, haha but was late cos went to buy flowers like super last minute XD haha anw after dinner at city hall, walked a considerably long distance to vch, and we were just on time, cos the band people were already starting to walk out. den the guys had to go all the way to the front, and we ended up sitting right in front of the percussion -.- haha the cymbals were erm powerfully strong eh :P anw the repertoire were not that classical-ly la, so it was quite enjoyable! the bad was not bad too, which makes the whole concert a success i guess. the stage band was funny and nice too! haha kudos to vanessa and daniel, class band people =D
lynette said they saw yp there during interval, when the girls went toilet! ahh i didn't :( was expecting him to be there la, afterall he was previously from band. so quite sad didn't see him la. hmm dunno if he saw me not though =/ and talking bout band concert, i didn't go for his one last year =/ come to think of it, should have gone sia. nvm, it's over.
talking bout concerts, i also went for aristal last fri! haha, it was at nus ucc, which i almost couldn't find my way. couldn't even find the bus interchange at clementi la. oh man, shi bai. haha. anw, met the girls there, and we got pretty good seats! haha went in on the dot again XD anw the dances were great! very graceful and intriguing! haha once again, well done to yihui and wendy, class dancers(:

ok that will be the end of my concert streak for this hols XD haha, and it's time to focus on our very own guit concert! jiayou guitarists!

haha so this week was pretty much filled with activities! well spent i must say! haha. next week must seriously chiong hw le. amy, u can do it! haha!

anw evelyn will be back tml, haha lucky her get to go overseas lo. outing soon(:


on a side note, now even the juniors know abt it! ahh >.<

it's the holidays! =D

yay our 1 mth break has started!
haha dunno what to expect out of it, except for more guitar, outings, shopping and mugging? ahh can't really get myself in the mood for mugging actually. it's like, there's no push, motivation and i dunno wat else. haha. sian diao -.- and my tv is spolit! what luck! haha

anw, i think i'm starting to feel better. i think. but.. i dunno. it's hard, harder then i imagine it to be.

and they dun understand :( but i don't blame them, cos i dun understand it myself either.

they were at it today again. but at times like this, hard to take jokes. sorry if i over-reacted. haha

but am trying my best not to over-react...
cos i'm afraid,
in the midst of fighting back my feelings,
i'll end up hurting u :(
if anyone is to get hurt, i would rather it be me than u...

anw, the guitar exam group will be taking their exam on thurs! omg so near!! after all their practices for the past months, please please let them do well (:
ahh pretty scared for them =/
jiayou guitarists! <3

cts are over! (:

dreaded CTS are over, over, over!!

haha, felt so short yet so long. and the papers were... ahh no comments -.-

so ok past few days were spent fruitfully trying to unwind myself from all the accumulated stress(: and as all would agree, a well-deserved break. thank god that my papers ended early, like on tues. if not, would have foregone the past 2 free days. haha

so tues after physics went for sushi buffet at cine's suki sushi for class outing. haha ate our fill there i guess; gotta make our money worth! den after lunch deliberated for so long on where to proceed next. haha the usual guy girl can't mix well thing again. could tell that the guys were like trying to please us by following where we wanted to go. but we, being girls, could hardly be bothered bout them :P we would rather shop around by ourselves in that sense. haha, and as expected, the guys gave up soon after :P

den on weds, went out on a date with stella! haha decided not to go for class outing cos din realy like sentosa :P haha. anyway, we went to sing out hearts out at kbox! haha, just had the sudden urge to sing :D enjoyed every second of it! haha and the dui chang for both girls to sing is damn cute and funny! so after singing till our voices were hoarse, we went shopping! for like the whole afternoon! haha though din buy anything, but it was still damn shuang(: and finally get to catch up with her after so long! haha should have another lap outing tgt with waileng also!

haha real sorry and paisey that i din wait for u ah evelyn!

today was ok as well. went library around noon. i was pretty bent on going i guess even though i went there aimlessly (as i did not have any book in mind) haha. so went there and browse for quite a while, before finally deciding on what to borrow. and as usual, all the popular books are on loan :( anw after that, went back to sch for junior's guit prac. helped out a little, but wasn't really much of a help la i find. i am more lost than they area :P but the song quien sera just gets people swaying! haha.

so post-ct period was great(: if only life could stay as carefree as now. ahhh, if only. nvm, just 6 more odd mths and we'll truely be free!

feeling hurt.


my mind is in a whirl now.
what you did today hurt me, like never before.
so much for being excited to see you after so long, why must you end my day like that :(
yea, so your diary has a big red heart on it. did you purposely let me see it?
and yea, you would rather talk to our guit girl juniors than talk to me. do u really dislike me?
and you would rather wait with zz who take diff bus from you den board the bus with me today. were you trying to tell me something? trying to tell me that you do not like me?
my gut feeling tells me that you are, as much as i want to deny it.
yet all of these could amount to nothing but mere thoughtless actions on your part.
ahh just how much i hate guessing your intentions :(

every now and then, i can't help but questioning myself whether i really like you, or is it jus another phase of my teenage life. although i think i do, but fact is i really don't know. but yet, i can't stop myself from liking you, as much as i want to. and i don't even have the courage to face you properly now. how i wish things weren't like that :(

and my gut feeling tells me again that you know about it. after being teased and all time and time again. and if it's true, it's either u dun believe it, or u are trying to reject me. somehow, after today, i believe it's the latter.

yea, it's not the first time that you hurt me so. and every single time, i wonder if u ever thought of how i would feel. but i guess u won't. and what sucks most is your attitude that always changes. at times, u treat me ok, yet at times, u treat me as though i'm non-existent. but then afterall, i guess i mean nothing to u. nothing. u din even bothered to wish me on my b'day, although i was hoping u would today, no matter how belated it will be. but u didn't. don't u noe that u are the one person that can make my day? all i hoped for was just 2 simple words from u, but u just had to forget. or maybe u just didn't noe ):

maybe this is not meant to be afterall. maybe it's just pure wishful thinking on my part. maybe it's time i reeled in my emotions. maybe.

and it's times like this, that make me hate myself more than i hate u.

if you can't hold on, let it go and come back in your heart...

perhaps i should just bury my emotions deep in my heart.

sweet 18 (:

18 on the 18th! how cool :D

really thankful for all the well-wishes(: received the most this year (although it's not exactly a lor la), but still i feel very blessed! especially those who wished me on the dot! thx for just remembering, really(: so even though i didn't celebrate much today cos had to mug, i still felt very happy((: at least there are people out there who bothered about my existence (haha i sound emo). ok maybe not to that extreme, but at least i know i have a bunch of frens who will always be there(: love all of you loads <3 keep in touch always!


but then, you forgot :( which upset me a little.

haiz nvm, the others more than made up for it (:



haha and i make a groundbreaking discovery today!! unbelievable! hahahaa





so it's a memorable day all in all, and i'm 18! woots!

there can be miracles when you believe(:

/EDIT

11/05/08
HAPPY B'DAY DEBBY AKA DA-BI ((:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TOO <3

haha good to listen to such motivating and inspirational songs during this period of time :P and yes, common tests are in 4 days time. can't wait for it to be over, seriously. kinda sick and sian of studying alr :( i hope to do well (who doesn't la), but yet am afraid of hoping too much, to avoid disappointing myself even more. ahh well, we will see what happens.

anw, past 2 weeks came and past; nothing significant that happened, or rather nothing that my failing memory can remember, haha.

main reason of this post is do some publicity for njc guitar ensemble concert(:

there will be two concerts:

1) String Theory - Picaresque of Love
Venue: Ngee Ann Kongsi Performing Arts Theatre (NJC)
Date: 11 July 2008
Time: 7.00 pm
Price: $8.00

2) String Theory - Viaggio de Musica
Venue: Esplanade Recital Studio
Date: 24 July 2008
Time: 7.15 pm
Price: $16.00

apparently, if you purchase the esplanade concert ticket, you will get a compimentary entry to the in-house concert too! and in case if you are wondering, the focus of the 2 concerts will be different, so it will not the exact same thing you will be watching.

and btw, string theory, in our context, has nothing to do with physics!
what it really means:
as quoted from njguit's blog
"String Theory":
When the guitar plays, it speaks of emotions and stories from the one who sees and feels them."Theory" signifies the complexities of emotions, which is is subtlely conveyed through the strings of the guitar.
((:

yup, so that's our bi-annual concert. if you are interested, let me know, fast! (:


till then, i'm sure CT will be a breeze. haha ya right -.-

recap (:

haha yes! finished up with physics spa today, and chem spa last week, both skill A. which means, no more spa for the rest of the year! haha, coolness :P not that i hate practical la, just just i hate having to sit for a practical test. chem was pretty standard, spent the whole night before memorisng though, but at least actual spa was nothing out of the ordinary, so hoepfully can score. but for physics, felt so unprepared even as i entered the examination hall O.O the preparation wasn't as straightforward as chem sad to say :( had to sort of study smart, and make predictions. but even still, the uncertainty principle still applies; can't know exactly every single detail. anyway, what i wanted to say was physics spa skill A wasn't that good. opps. a level 6 at least, please. so now that practical is over, it's 4 periods of tutorial per week per chem and physics subject! yayness -.- haha, but i prefer tutorial to spa though :P

hmm napfa sucks as usual. and now, i can't jump either. arghh. what's wrong with me man. and yea, i ran 2.4 for the second time last week, only to fail again. not only again, but failed worse. nvm, i shall continue to perservere, like what charleen is doing too(: and perhaps listen to jennings and listen to my ipod while running. haha, if i still fail, then i guess it's fated that i shall not pass my last napfa.

this week was the test-filled week. apart from physics spa, had quantum 1 test on mon too, as well as econs and maths on fri. got back quantum test, did quite ok la(: as for econs, felt kinda hopeless at answering the questions, and wasted cos could not apply what i tried to study the day before. ahhh heck. then maths was erm quite ok? ahh shan't say too fast, lest i don't do well. haha.

and ya, this week is also the last week of cip casp with zhenghua kids for my class :( i will miss my tutee sarah; she's really hardworking and turns up for every session! and yea, these 8 weeks spent with her has increased my level of patience greatly, serious. i am also more motivated now in terms of teaching them. and when i see that they sorta grasp the concept and stuff, it makes all the effort worth it(: although 8 weeks is short, but i guess even a little goes a long way, i hope. i guess most of my class people don't really see the point of the cip, which is sad :( but i don't blame them, cos the attendance of the kids was really poor, and it got worse as it progressed (except for my kid, and some others of cos). so i guess they got quite frustrated having to waste their time there doing nothing =/ but i am still glad they put in their best effort, one way or another, and hope that they really do appreciate that helping others is a joy (:

ok, so guitar is having exam break now for J2s and IP4s in preparations for CTs. ahh, which means i am home before sunset for most days! haha, but i will miss the guitarists, my beloved section mates, juniors, fellow J2-ers. haha. and which means i will also get to see whom i want to see less :(

oh man, what am i doing here >( i should be mugging for CT which will start next next next week, which is 3 weeks from now! ahh! and i barely started on my preparations, which is bad :S and yes, i need motivation! and more determination! haha, i must start studying! :P

went out today(: so did not do much work today. ahh heck.

dun know what else to blog about. lol.

anw, just wanted to say jiayou to all(: continue to hang in there and don't give up, in whatever situation u may be in! (:


haha have a nice song to share again.



超喜欢你 - 飞轮海


心跳快得很可怕
呼吸大到有气压
手心冒汗可以浇花(可以浇花)
生活变四格漫画
喜怒哀乐被放大
身不由己没有办法(没有办法)

怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样疯狂
怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样爱超出了想像

就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧

想要对你说的话
身体由已替我表达
一旦爱了不能作假(不能作假)
一度觉得很头大
怀疑细胞有偏差
可是爱了没有办法(没有办法)

想我超喜欢你
是我放在心里好久的秘密
我不敢告诉你
甚至没有勇气说服我自己
我问一问上帝
要怎么突破我们之间的距离
站在原地是友谊
往前一步又怕吓到你
我号称黄金右脚横冲直撞
天下无敌自由来去
怎么踏进这个禁区
马上败在你手里

a week in 5 points

in an absolutely random order:

1) i failed my napfa -.- ahhhh wth la. failed 2.4 (expected it, afterall din really train much, but the horrid tears just came =/ haha guess i'm weak emotionally) and i actually failed situps too (was my last station, managed to D-ed the other 4, and when i realised i E-ed my situps, almost cried again -.- omg i am really really weak la, both physically and emotionally. bleagh.) and it doesn't help a single bit that _____ was being so unsympathetic and sacarstic to some extent la.
"it is obvious that you don't want to make this yout last 2.4" oh man, i will remember this sentence for life. not as though i din try, or that i purposely want to walk la; in fact, it was one of the best run i felt i had ran, but i still failed -.- stupid. and i seriously don't feel like retaking the whole thing next week :(
"of course. this is not the first time you are in NJ right?!"
wish me luck man.
but i resolve not to let this affect me anymore, emotionally(: haha

2) A for PW(: but wasn't exactly elated i guess. afterall, PW is such a pointless and unfair subject. ppl who dun deserve an A got A, while ppl who deserve an A din get A. anw, to say i dun care for the A would be hypocritical, so i am still glad i got it.

3) visited sarah at sgh together with praba today. had a hearty chat tgt after what seem a looonng time(: haha. glad she's feeling better now. but from her account, poor girl only got better these few days, can't imagine the pain/ suffering she actually went through for the past 3 weeks =/. hope the doctor can quickly come up with a diagnosis and treat her fast(: get well soon! oh ya, chatted with praba after what seem eons ago too. lol

4) guit's been fine, but maybe sth is still lacking from practices. sth that actually keeps the passion in guitar going. what is it? hmm...

5) the urgency of CT isn't getting to me. slacking is now my second nature. haha

alrights, i am off to slp.

i willed myself and took a step forward. but you seem nonchalent. but i still enjoyed your company, although it may mean nothing to you. and sharing my problems/feelings with you makes me feel better, although you did not offer me words of comfort. i am sure you don't know that even the tiniest bit of concern from you actually magnifies greatly inside me. show me more, won't you?

not a good weekend

confused.

distracted.

sad.

emotional.

heartache.

tired.

series of emotions that built up on something that happened on fri morning.

just felt that i needed to pen it down, to get a clearer picture of it myself...

so i was taking the bus in the morning, the bus came slightly later than usual, but that's not the point. the moment i boarded the bus, i had this strong feeling that he would board the bus too. not sure why, but part of it was because i knew it was one of the buses he could take too, and that i saw him in the bus once. not the point again. so while on the bus, i still felt that he was going to board the bus, and even envisioned meeting him while alighting. and of course, i thought i was crazy, making such silly hallucinations. anw, while the bus was about to reach (i was sitting on the upper deck), i got up from my seat earlier than usual, as i was still thinking i could meet him (after thinking so much bout it happening during the journey). and guess what? i really saw him! (or at least i think i did) i caught a glimpse of his face from the corner of my eye while alighting, and after that, i didn't dare to look back to check if it was him. (but i think it's him, cos the particular image keeps replaying in my head). come to think of it, i should have at least turned to say hi or sth, but i didn't. guess it was because i couldn't believe it actually happened. i mean, even though i was sort of anticipating it, but the odds were like so so low, that the moment it happened, i didn't know what to do. moreover, i couldn't face, for reasons that i'm not sure of either. and this means so much because it was also the first time i actually had this strong yet weird feeling that he was going to board the bus. really. it actually made me feel stronger and deeper for you. yet on the other hand, it may be just a coincidence, and i am just thinking too much. i really dunno :(
but i cant deny that i like you, though your oblivious attitude just cont to hurt me :(

guess i let you get the best of me...

still dun feel any better =/ haiz

another thing that made me so moody this weekend is that i miss stella :( and waileng too. din see them for lap last 2 weeks, which is actually the only time we can actually meet up and catch up. haiz. at least i still see kellie in gp class, but we seldom talk too :( haiz.

and sarah is worrying/ scaring me :( and the only little thing i can do now is to give her support
to sarah low:
hey! i know u will not be reading this. but do stay strong k? i'm sure u will recover soon, and we will meet up soon as well(: take care girl!

woots!

another week has past! haha

thurs had normal prac, and it was the last day of sch for yu fei :(
had a simple farewell for him, sang my hearts out with the song I'll be there for you
and coincidentally or not i dunno, ms ng actually treated us to 2 sets of sushi from sakae sushi! it was pretty timely considering that we only had a corrugated board like card as farewell gift for him (which was only last min!) haha, so yeah kinda cool! although he said he wasn't touched -.- haha, but we'll still miss him la. all the best in canada(:

sat was acjc's fun-o-rama!
went down after lap, and the weather was like hot. haha
met evelyn and yuanqing and renee (i think), crescent juniors. ok so i din know how to walk to ac (haha), so had to trouble the 3 of them to walk out to meet me! lol my sense of directions sucks bad :P anw, i was in a pretty stingy mood, and was very unwilling to spend. i spent 10 bucks only btw. haha. roamed around the various stalls, and the whole place was pretty packed. met a few familiar faces, saw aysha after soo long(: haha. and wanted to give sarah a surprise, but ended realising that the poor girl was hospitalised again :((( after giving her a call. ahh must take care and rest well!! din see emily, haha was thinking she may have ponned. so just talked and chat with evelyn and co. haha. overall the funfair was ok la.

guitar's ok so far, but our concert idea has been changing, changing and still changing. lol, still not finalised yet. has a rather unproductive online discussion last night which lasted 2 hrs! den spent quite a while doing up synopsis for just 3 song =/ meeting tml again to discuss further. hope everything wld fall in place tml. screw the uncertainty principle :P haha

hmm den i helped debby a little with her uni application. hope she gets wat she wants(:

ahh i am so random. lol


so i shall add another random song! haha



i think i'm silly to heart u :(

well-rested

shall complete my post today cos com was damn laggg yesterday. haha


(yest)

had a pretty loonnng weekend(: haha. felt more relaxed than march holidays somehow; less chiong-y. lol

went out with family on fri! shopping! haha din buy anything la, but still feels good!
sat was great lap sales! haha was the stall holder of Toy Story Toy Mania! childhood memories man, haha. felt like a santa claus, giving away toys to the kids. hohoho! glad that the kids enjoyed themselves anw(:
din study much this weekend, but i'll take it that i'm resting for the loonng term ahead :P haha

okk, so sch's staring tml (yet again) =/ sian-ness.
btw the hall converted lecture theatre is kinda cool. 3 screens with proper tables and chairs. haha.

haiz.


haha, so that was yesterday.

now for today! haha

nth much la, jus that i'm home early again. ahh i miss having guit on mon :( feels weird coming home early. haha ok i'm weird.

blogger is damn lag now. sian


haiz



...and i don't know
how to be fine when i'm not
cos i don't know
how to make this feeling stop
just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it...

cant face you