this is not good

i did something stupid today. at least i think did. sigh.

what's with me anyway. crap.

ended feeling horrible at home, when i could have spent time better outside. argh, and finding excuses to substantiate my stupid decision didn't help either ><

i guess i was afraid. afraid of falling into your trap, over again.

if it was some other person, i'm not sure if i would have done the same. perhaps not, cos' you are not just any other person.

i thought i have gotten over it, somehow. but i guess apparently not.

i conclude that i always think too much, always.

i know you just wanted to go out. i was free, and you knew it. which makes things worse.

i wanted to go actually, but i just can't. somehow, it didn't feel right.

so i'm sorry for being such an idiot, really, though you will not be reading this.

hopefully, you would not take this to heart.

and if there is a next time, i promise not to be the idiot i was today.

but still, whatever it is, i'm sorry.


meanwhile, i shall work towards taking things at face value, as what they are.
have to really stop thinking too much.
just give me a bit more time, and i'm sure i can get over it. :)

再零点零零一公里就可以清醒