a week in 5 points

in an absolutely random order:

1) i failed my napfa -.- ahhhh wth la. failed 2.4 (expected it, afterall din really train much, but the horrid tears just came =/ haha guess i'm weak emotionally) and i actually failed situps too (was my last station, managed to D-ed the other 4, and when i realised i E-ed my situps, almost cried again -.- omg i am really really weak la, both physically and emotionally. bleagh.) and it doesn't help a single bit that _____ was being so unsympathetic and sacarstic to some extent la.
"it is obvious that you don't want to make this yout last 2.4" oh man, i will remember this sentence for life. not as though i din try, or that i purposely want to walk la; in fact, it was one of the best run i felt i had ran, but i still failed -.- stupid. and i seriously don't feel like retaking the whole thing next week :(
"of course. this is not the first time you are in NJ right?!"
wish me luck man.
but i resolve not to let this affect me anymore, emotionally(: haha

2) A for PW(: but wasn't exactly elated i guess. afterall, PW is such a pointless and unfair subject. ppl who dun deserve an A got A, while ppl who deserve an A din get A. anw, to say i dun care for the A would be hypocritical, so i am still glad i got it.

3) visited sarah at sgh together with praba today. had a hearty chat tgt after what seem a looonng time(: haha. glad she's feeling better now. but from her account, poor girl only got better these few days, can't imagine the pain/ suffering she actually went through for the past 3 weeks =/. hope the doctor can quickly come up with a diagnosis and treat her fast(: get well soon! oh ya, chatted with praba after what seem eons ago too. lol

4) guit's been fine, but maybe sth is still lacking from practices. sth that actually keeps the passion in guitar going. what is it? hmm...

5) the urgency of CT isn't getting to me. slacking is now my second nature. haha

alrights, i am off to slp.

i willed myself and took a step forward. but you seem nonchalent. but i still enjoyed your company, although it may mean nothing to you. and sharing my problems/feelings with you makes me feel better, although you did not offer me words of comfort. i am sure you don't know that even the tiniest bit of concern from you actually magnifies greatly inside me. show me more, won't you?