not a good weekend

confused.

distracted.

sad.

emotional.

heartache.

tired.

series of emotions that built up on something that happened on fri morning.

just felt that i needed to pen it down, to get a clearer picture of it myself...

so i was taking the bus in the morning, the bus came slightly later than usual, but that's not the point. the moment i boarded the bus, i had this strong feeling that he would board the bus too. not sure why, but part of it was because i knew it was one of the buses he could take too, and that i saw him in the bus once. not the point again. so while on the bus, i still felt that he was going to board the bus, and even envisioned meeting him while alighting. and of course, i thought i was crazy, making such silly hallucinations. anw, while the bus was about to reach (i was sitting on the upper deck), i got up from my seat earlier than usual, as i was still thinking i could meet him (after thinking so much bout it happening during the journey). and guess what? i really saw him! (or at least i think i did) i caught a glimpse of his face from the corner of my eye while alighting, and after that, i didn't dare to look back to check if it was him. (but i think it's him, cos the particular image keeps replaying in my head). come to think of it, i should have at least turned to say hi or sth, but i didn't. guess it was because i couldn't believe it actually happened. i mean, even though i was sort of anticipating it, but the odds were like so so low, that the moment it happened, i didn't know what to do. moreover, i couldn't face, for reasons that i'm not sure of either. and this means so much because it was also the first time i actually had this strong yet weird feeling that he was going to board the bus. really. it actually made me feel stronger and deeper for you. yet on the other hand, it may be just a coincidence, and i am just thinking too much. i really dunno :(
but i cant deny that i like you, though your oblivious attitude just cont to hurt me :(

guess i let you get the best of me...

still dun feel any better =/ haiz

another thing that made me so moody this weekend is that i miss stella :( and waileng too. din see them for lap last 2 weeks, which is actually the only time we can actually meet up and catch up. haiz. at least i still see kellie in gp class, but we seldom talk too :( haiz.

and sarah is worrying/ scaring me :( and the only little thing i can do now is to give her support
to sarah low:
hey! i know u will not be reading this. but do stay strong k? i'm sure u will recover soon, and we will meet up soon as well(: take care girl!