goodbye!

movedd. ask me for the new url if u are interested (:

I don't know anymore.

2nd Sunday of May, so yea HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
i love my mum! haha. celebrated it yesterday by giving my family a dinner treat at sakae sushi! ordered quite a bit la, but not too expensive for me still :P den went round looking around and bought a simple dress for my cousin's wedding at end may. haha am looking forward to it! (:

friday night out with stella was great too! poor her just recovered from stomach flu ahh :( so she's been eating plain food for the past few days, so friday we indulged in korean food! at a restaurant-like place at suntec city. hope u are better now gurl! :) caught up with her alot over dinner; havent seen her in ages! so i glad that we met up! take care yea!

msn-ing with nigo and kz over the weekend was :) too. maybe i miss them! LOL. anw quite interesting to hear their stories and rants of how they are being tortured, and the subsequent degrading of the F-A-S (reversed). haha!

so today i slacked at home. haha. but i went swimming finally! after a long long long time. haha serious k :P swam for like 1 hour in the late afternoon. better than nothing la hor x) heh

and oh! hope to learn jap with stella!

stella says i get paranoid easily; nigo says i think too much.
i hope they are true.
meanwhile, i'll try hard to keep my faith in you... :)
but it's hard, cos it feels as though i don't know you anymore.

bright bright sun shiny day (:

went to watch 17 Again with sarah, shu zhen and clare at gv vivo yesterday! haha the show's not bad, quite interesting in fact. and zac efron's acting was not that bad la. lol. caught up with one another a bit before and after the show, which amounts to not much actually, but at least better than nth right. haha. nevertheless, it's great chilling out and relaxing after a day's work (:


anw, i did it (: TG from the bottom of my heart (:


and yesterday, i came across a meaningful song while practising singing the graduation songs with the K2 class. thought i might share it with u all (:



if u are sad/unhappy/distressed, hang in there, cos' yr rainbow will appear soon (:

labour day outing :)

okay, class outing at sentosa was quite fun la i hope. haha though the picnic was erm not very successful, but it's ok x) den again, it was quite badly planned la =/ haiz. anw the sun was shining down real hard, such that walking on the sand barefooted was unbearable. lol, and i actually kept worrying it would rain, how silly -.- anw, did quite a bit of catching up with the girls, hearing stories and asking bout uni apps here and there. while hearing the guys go on and on with ns and ns and ns. lol. chatted a bit with the others like kz but din get a chance to chat with nic goh. and he doesn't care la. tsk. oh well.

so it's the start of may! why so fast! :(

anw i got accepted into nus fos! haha, like finally. now have to submit the acceptance form and other admin stuff. dunno if i should go for the science camp leh. ahh see how.

and i dunno when i should stop work. ahhh so undecided. lol

btw to my dearest guit juniors: u all did awesome, no matter wat! proud of u guys :)



people change, but i guess i have to keep believing and having faith...

feels good to be not working!

albeit just for 1 day, haha xP

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so i took a day off today to attend to something in the morning. faltered a little at some questions, didn't say some things and stuff like that, but overall it was okay i guess. a tad more confident then the previous time, lol. but since it is relative, it's hard to say whether i fared well or not. oh well, shall just keep my fingers crossed and await for (good) news 2 weeks later. still, i thank God for pulling me through it :)

have not been blogging much lately. too busy? too lazy? haha maybe a mixture of both.

anyway, it is Ben & Jerry's free cone day today! and since i soo happen not to be working, i went to queue up for the free ice cream of course! haha, i chose the new flavour - chocolate macademia - which was pretty refreshing and absolutely delicious. the macademia nuts are chocolate-coated, so as you bite on it, it gives a first sweet, then salty taste, and later a mixture of both. lol. the base ice cream - a mixture of chocolate and vanilla i think, goes pretty well with the macademia nuts as well. and so, i enjoyed licking up my cone of chocolate macademia, which made the longg wait worth it! haha okay, not that i waited very long. i went to the branch at raffles city, and started queuing at like 15 min before 12. LOL. but the queue then was already snaking! talk about kiasuism man. haha. so i waited oh-so-patiently in my high heels, no choice :P

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ok, enough about free ice cream (ie, enough of portraying myself as a glutton) ahahaha. shall do a journal entry about last week.

hmm ok let's see..

celebrated evelyn's birthday at holland v last thursday! it was together with some of her close friends, and her parents! so all of us were treated to a fantabulous dinner at Thai Express, delicious chocolate cheese cake from NYDC, and a soothing drink at the Roof Terrace Cafe (one which i didn't know existed -.-) ok, apart from the awesome dinner (told you i was a glutton! haha), i also spent a great time with the whole bunch of them! we all had fun talking, chit-chating, gossiping and reminiscing, especially under the starry night ;) so yup, it was great! and once again,
HAPPY B'DAY EVELYN! - 16/4/09

on sat morning, went together with kellie to YMCA as a volunteer to help out with the YFC selection interview. was assigned the duty of a timer. haha, it's not as easy as it sounds okay! :P anyway, while timing, i also listened some teams presentng their proposals now and then. some were good, some were average, some were just bad. lol. well, i still had much fun doing it! and yea, not to forget chatting session with kellie after that! :) went home at bout 2, with the sun scorching down on me like nobody's business -.- had to resort to using my umbrella, which actually does not really help, since it is made of the kind of translucent material that allow light rays to still pass through, and hence it is unable to divert the uv-filled light away from me and my face. zzz. ah, oh well. i guess it's time for me to strike of the (mis)conception that umbrellas are only associated with rainy weathers. haha :P

then on sunday night, it was 4C2 class gathering! it's good to see all of them again, but ya we are still pretty divided in that sense. oh well. still an awesome class in any sense :) anyway, i finally saw sarah low yan ping after i don't know how freaking long! LOL. if i were to look at her from toe to head, i would have definitely not recognise her! haha, u will understand if u understand x) at last she's able to meet up with us and go out with us! am relieved to know that she's much beter now, and that she's still the funny and cheeky girl i know. haha, great time catching up with her and talking to shuzhen and hazimah as well :) looking forward to seeing her (and emily too) again! :)

so at least last week kept me busy and occupied! haha

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yesterday was the 20th April 2009..

just wanna wish JAMIE and HAZIMAH

a HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!! =D

may your 19th year be as awesome as ever!


hmm, i seem to know quite a few april babies. haha.

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okk, other than that, been pretty much busy with work, and entertaining myself with the kids at the same time. haha. slowly building a rapport with kids, in general. anyway yest was very funny, sweet in that sense :) so before going home, one of the boys, christian, (whom i scolded teasingly earlier on) said: ms amy, i love you! ahahahaha, how sweet! and another girl said i was very nice! ahahaha, feels good to be praised ( even though it's by little kids :P) sometimes, the kids are a fun bunch to work with la, can't deny that. if you minus the fact they tend to drive me crazy sometimes :P


in the meantime, missing the missing i guess. haha :)

i don't expect much :)

this week has been great too!

- farewell dinner for colleagues who are entering poly soon.
- movie+dinner with great company and amusement! haha ;)
- K2 Concert!
- class gathering!

and so, i am :) haha

work-wise, things are fine too. playing with and teasing the little kids arethe best parts of it :P been helping out with the K2 concert preparation this week, and the concert itself was pretty!!haha anyway, next week is the easter holidays, for 1 week! which means no school for the them, but there's still work for me! lol, gonna have to do some other stuff.

okay, time is passing very fast. gonna miss some people very soon. haha sianzxzx

great week =)

and i don't get this often! haha

wed:
went back nj for guitar again :) this time with caiyun, and met some seniors there too! haha debby is still the same old debby! (no lawyer look yet hehe) chatted a bit with them, den listened to their comments for the ensemble, which i find rather useful and applicable, hopefully the ensemble really take them seriously. listened to juniors grouses abt playing the same 2 songs over and over again and how mundane/ boring/ stagnant practices have become (which reminded me of my syf days, lol) ah well can't be helped, that's syf for everybody. jiayou k ppl :) just 1 more mth! and dinner another day k, debby! haha :)

thurs:
the day i went broke. LOL. ok la, not really. treated kz to dinner and ice cream after work. lousy me lost my bet, so i owed him a treat. haha. but still, i am nice right :) ahahahaha. dined at yoshi first (his idea of helping me save money, when it is more of saving tummy space for ice cream -.- lol) den went to swensens for ice cream. sinfully delicious (what to do, haha) anw half the time he was sms-ing la. i know i am boring la k. lol.

fri:
took a day off from work to go play mahjong! (talk about being broke eh, ahaha) played with jamie, mar and nic goh at jamie's house. quite a noob at it la, but i still won! lol but not using real money la. den when mar left, it was still early, so we played the 3 player one our style! LOL, quite fun also la. jamie fed us with food too! haha thx girl :) after mahjong, it was still early, so went amk hub to play a little of arcade with nic goh. bad choice, cos i jus wasted his money since i suck at it. ahahaha. den he went home, and i went to meet stella for the networking session. it was pretty informative, and i guess i have to be mentally prepared for the road ahead.

today:
audition-ed in the early early morning. haha not crazy dun worry ;) slept. went library in the afternoon to pay my fines LOL. borrowed 2 general ref books. all the good fiction books are on loan, as always. ok la, not that i have any books on mind anyway. haha.

so ya, had a great week! :)

and yea, hang on sarah low!


hmm, sometimes, i think i read into things too much...
but somehow i have got this weird feeling that u are putting on a facade.
and yet, there's nothing that i can do about it.
and it sucks.
but if it's true, and if u consider me as a friend,
help me help u.

holland village!

met evelyn for dinner on friday night, at guess where??

LOL Holland Village!
soo near where i live haha.

anw we went to this ipoh hor fan restaurant to eat. and i dunno why i ate curry chicken noodles instead lol. chatted with her over dinner, and helped her with some maths qns. which i wasn't much of a help actually. haha x)

after dinner, went for a walk around hv. to show evelyn just how, erm, interesting it is. HAHA. ok la, even though i stay near hv, i haven't really explored the whole of it yet. went to the 2 shopping centres first, where most shops are already close (even though it was just 7 plus). den went to cold storage (it's tt interesting, see) haha. den it was still early, so headed to some of the branching lanes (no idea wat to call that). along 1 lane, there are alot of different restaurants (like really, it's a food haven). haha, some of which i didn't even know existed O.O so it's a great place for dining and chilling out afterwards. den the other lane got like pubs and bars and stuff, with lots of foriegners. continued walking around a little after that, nth much la. den went for a last stroll in cold storage (it's 24 hours u noe ahahah). den sent evelyn home on her bus! haha :) ok la, still had a fun time, although i am jus more convinced at how interesting it is, man. haha.

ok, my weekends have jus come and gone. soo fast. work tml again! haha. but next week gonna be fun though, i hope! :)


'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there


stay happy! :)

ooo la laaaa ~

i am updating, finally. haha.

results are soo yesterday. my grades are, well, average. decent enough to get into the course i want, which is not all that competitive though, considering that i am applying for enrolment in the faculty of science at nus. haha, but i am still thankful for my results, for it could have been much worse. so ya, i am satisfied :) no regrets for one, as i really did put in my utmost effort in preparing for it, although time was a little tight then. however, i am a little puzzled at how cambridge markers mark and grade the scripts. haha, just weird. anyway, congrats to my friends who did well too! :) and to the dearest ones that didn't, i will pray hope wish that you can get into your desired course, and from there, just forget that A levels ever existed. heh ;)

the next important thing after results would be applications to universities. did not have much of a headache deciding which course i want, as i had already sort of made up my mind to undertake a degree relating to maths, since like 6 months ago or so. and now, i am still pretty keen on it. not really interested in other courses, except maybe psychology or statistics (lol). i considered business too, but i don't really find it interesting. law and medicine are my past ambitions, but my grades will deem me ineligible, even if i want have a go at it now. ahaha. ok so, my desired course now would be Applied Mathematics at NUS FOS. and contrary to what many think, i do not aim to be a math teacher! lol, i can enter other professions you know. i am thinking of actuary actually. haha, if not, i will just apply my maths to other fields. lol, i make it sound so simple -.-

visited smu open house last week. haha, for fun, and to accompany stella :) attended some talks, visited booths, blah blah. didn't get a chance to explore the whole campus though, cos it was raining, resulting in the campus tour being kept on postponed indefinitely -.- ended up getting stuck at the admission building. haha. then i went for nus open house earlier today (when everybody is at ntu, i choose to think) lol. almost went alone, but went with NG instead and met his friend (my ex pri sch classmate) TK. i still remember him, though he doesn't. zzz. haha. anyway, attended the talks, which were quite boring. went straight to the maths booth at FOS, and asked a few questions. walked around a little. blah blah. then met evelyn and her ac seniors for dinner. ok la, chatted with them a bit, nice people :) caught up a little with evelyn too :)

ok anyway, i finally went back to guitar to visit! haha, it's been sooo longg. heh. heard them playing their 2 syf pieces, and it was not bad la. haha :) in fact, i am impressed that all of them memorised their score! haha coolness, since the fingering and notes are not all that easy. talked to some of the juniors, and ya, it's great seeing them again :)

went for free nus genus concert yest night with ex guit mates. haha. it was not too bad, revolving around japanese themes. of all the songs, i like the song 'part of your world' best! lovely song! the 2 songs put up by the niborii ensemble were also great! haha, genus mayy be my future cca! see how it goes ;)

other than that, it's work work and work. not too bad, still working with kids. my kid got his own shadow teacher already, so now i am more or less a relief teacher covering classes for assistant teachers. got to go to different classes, which means working with different lead teachers, which means having to remember more names of kids. lol, a test of my memory.

on a side note, facebook is flooding my mail even more so now -.-

and it became more awkward =/
maybe i regret
everything i said
no way to take it all back...

maybe i'm just an overreacting piece of shit.

but how could you even act nonchalent to it all?
when i am struggling with this facade i put up, trying to shrug of everything as though i can't be bothered, when it is actually causing me so much discomfort.
now, i am fully convinced that things can't go back to normal.
there is too much awkwardness, embarassment, regret, resentment and i don't know what else between us.
yet, i still have to face you, acting as though it was just all a big joke then.

god, how when why did things even turn out like that? :(

how i wish i could believe nic goh, believe that i could turn back time...

but then again, maybe, subconsciously, i wish that i could just do it my way.

another weekly update.

this is to avoid incoherence in my post. so i am listing one by one. haha.

1) happy birthday, mummy!

2) i received my 2nd pay on friday (:

3) i got myself a haircut.

4) on wed after work, went to visit kellie at the jap restaurant she's working at with stella and waileng. we were (almost) lost. LOL, we were like soo relieved when we finally found the place. turned out that we were either looking in the wrong direction, or we had had our eyes plastered with stamps such that we missed out on 1 big indicator. haha. anw i had a nice and delicous bowl of ramen, charsiew with miso soup. yum! caught up on alot with both of them, and saw the professional side of kellie. haha. all in all, had a great night (:

5) i almost lied/ feigned ignorance to cover my mistakes twice! \

first occasion: i was supposed to bring the class down to forest playground, and i wasn't very sure where, but i didn't want to ask the teacher (trying to be smart aleck, haha) okk, so what happened was i took the longer route. after walking for a while, i turned around to check on them, only to realise that more than half of the kids were gone! lol, u bet i panicked a little. we're talking about kindy kids here, no joke. ok, so i hastily retraced the route i took. couldn't find them. so i went back to class to find the teacher. told her half the class was missing. jus imagine the somewhat look of horror/shock on her face. opps. then here comes the test of my character:
her: which way did you go? down this way? (referring to the route which i didn't take)
(i was like omg, i took the wrong route. ok, so i was thinking, could i say yes, could i say yes? shit, what will happen if i say no? lol) after thinking for what i would reckon 1-2 seconds,
me: oh no. i went this way (pointing towards the route i took)
phew! at that moment, i was quite glad that i didn't lie. lol.
anw, guess what? the missing kids were at the playground alr. apparently one of the kids knew the place and she just did not follow my lead and went off herself, with the others behind her following. lol, and she got a scolding by the teacher! oh my, i felt kinda bad. haha

second occasion: a rather michievious boy asked me for permission to visit the toilet to wash his hands after snack, and i granted him permission.
mrs G: who's food stuff are these, not cleared?
me: oh, it's J's. (we call him J, no idea why) he went to the toilet.
mrs G: again! without permission! mrs C, J went to the toiler again without asking permission.
me: (lol great, i granted him permission. but i kept at that instance)
mrs C: *shakes head* you see, he never learns! always not listening to instructions, and doing things on his own.
me: (oh my, u better say it) oh, actually he asked me for permission, and i let him go.
phew again! anw, i found out that J has behavourial problems, so the teachers are rather particular about him being in the toilet (he plays in the toilet, along that line)

ok, in both instances, i wasn't scolded. quite thankful that i didn't lie (in the end), although i did comtemplate doing it. think it's because i am not used to making mistakes, so i never really had to admit to one. lol. guess i am learning now. being a person with integrity, yea!

6) when Pranav crys, he is inconsolable. he's becoming more temperamental. he cried twice; once cos he wasn't allowed to swim (down with bad cold. and he's still in sch?! lol) the other because he wasn't given a lollipop. think a special needs specialist is coming down to observe him tml.

7) had book character parade in kindy on thurs! cos it was book week, haha. all the kids came dressed up in their favourite book character. and yes, u bet they were all very cute and adorable!

ok, work tml again.

FRIDAY!

about kids (=work) haha!

another week has passed by, again! oh my, it's really fast!

soon, A's results would be out! haha. been hearing rumours about the release date from friends around, but no 2 that actually corroborate each other. lol funny. not really worried about it now though (but it's not that i am confident!!) haha, i guess need the official announcement of the release date from MOE before i can feel the apprehension of receiving my results. haha. okay, i think it will either be out next week or next next week. a friday, most likely.

this week at work was fun but tiring, amusing but exasperating, at the same time. haha. was attached to my kindy kid again. he's called Pranav. his behaviour, well, fluctuates a lot. sometimes i find him okay, like he can talk (sensibly), he has knowledge that is acceptable of five year old, he knows what is happening around him. but then again, he's easily distracted and loses focus easily (and it becomes hard to communicate with him), he needs personal attention and instructions, and at times, he just venture into a dissociated state of his own. hmm, so i guess he just need some professional therapy early, and he would turn out alright :) anyway, when he's okay, he quite cute to talk too. haha, even though sometimes i don't get what is he saying x) and he's clever in his own sense too! like on friday, the zipper thingy on his bag dropped (partially my fault, haha). and i thought he wouldn't notice, but then, he started crying! LOL. so i quickly pacify him, saying i would go fix it. so i went to the teacher, who helped taped it back. after some time, it came out again! and he got sad, so i said i would fix it back (which i didn't LOL). then at the end of the day, i thought he would have forgotten about it (it's just a zipper thingy, u noe, haha), but no! he didn't, and started asking for it. so i took it out the detached part and told him to ask his mummy to fix it. he sort of understood, and then relented. hahaha. prove that u just can't fool a kid!

besides him, the other kids are also interesting in their own ways. since it's an international school, so the kids there are from various nationalities. and yar, despite the difference in language and culture, they still get along quite well, which is pretty cool! after having been through 1 week of their school, i must say they are privileged kids (of rich expats, haha). during curriculum time, they have learning centres in air-conditioned class (writing, numbers, drawing, art), go for playground time, swimming lesson, music lesson, library, and mandarin lessons as well. haha, interesting. during learning time, they have like lots of resources and toys that are cool and interesting! oh my, they even have a resource room, for that matter. and i have in there for duty as well, helping teachers to check in and out the resources. and the room is like filled with all sorts of different resources. lol, real cool. and i can't help but playing those sometimes too. LOL. anyway after school, enrichment classes are offered too, and some kids even signed up for like more than 1 O.O . they have like ballet, drama, hindi, keyboard, soccer (i was amazed to see them dressed soccer jerseys, pants, and shoes, like omg, haha) lucky or not, idk.

so that's kindergarten school for them. haha. and oh ya, they started to address me as ms amy already. haha. the girls are mostly obedient, very easy to handle and talk to. it is the boys that are oh my tian naughty. at least majority of them. they will just repeat whatever u tell them not to do -.- scolding and threatening works to a small extent only. as a result, i have been shouting quite a bit, and i think it caused me to lose my voice partially now. thought it was a sore throat initially, but luckily not. but still, argh. haha.

and oh, i realised something interesting about them!
they love to complain about their friends alot! like
"ms ___ , philip pushed me."
"ms ___ , miguel is not standing in his special spot."
"ms ___ , vivian is not sharing the tricycle."
lol, do all kids love to rat out their friends that much? haha

but then again, maybe that's wat makes them cute as well :)

and yea, i am still trying to understand their way of thinking. haha

ok, i have just ranted a long post abt my work. lol. nth else to blog about.

no social life lar lol. nvm, next week will be better :)

oh, and i need retail therapy. i finished reading nineteen minutes by jodi picoult too, so i need a new book as well. gah.

reminder to self: change :)

happy valentine's day! =)

just another ordinary day of singlehood. ahahahaha.

well, wishing all my besties a happy valentine's day! luv u all always! (:

and OHH, i am NOT talking to nigo and kz alr. can't believed they bluffed me. so much for regarding them as great friends. haha tsk.


anw, work this week was okay; find time to be passing very fast! lol. hmm, as there is nothing much to do in the office, my job scope has changed again! and i was only just getting used to my office job, lol! i am still in the kindergarten departemnt, just that now, i can get into direct contact with the kindy kids! i am sort of required to cover classes for teachers who are absent (the priority), if not i am actually supposed to monitor a problem kid.

hmm, problem kid sounds wrong; just a boy with some developmental problem i guess. after being with him for 2 days, and listening to the teachers' comments about him, he really do seem do have some problem/s la. have to wait for the school to allocate a shadow teacher to him to really know what is wrong. but till then, i am 'attached' to him, and hopefully i can try to understand him more, and find out that he's fine afterall. yeah :)

actually, i can't believe that i am working with kids now! i loveee kids very much! haha. but i am seeing them in a new light now, though. they can get very naughty, and i had to shout at them at times. lol! nvm, kids are kids, their cuteness far compensates for anything. haha.

on a side note, my best meal this week was sakae sushi with work pals for dinner, friday night. it was soo impromptu. haha. and we bought roses to give to each other in celebration of valentine's day. how silly of us x)


i dunno why am i still avoiding you, even afraid of starting an msn convo with you. i have truely gotten over it, but i could only do it at the expense of our friendship, i realised. and i guess, there's nothing i can do to salvage this friendship now. it's too late, i faltered, u faltered. time has only made the barrier even thicker, even more impenetrable; awkardness and oblivion is all that's left.

sorry, for letting our friendship fade.
sorry, for all the heartfelt words that i penned down then, that may seem fake to you now.
sorry, for my utter lack of courage.

forgive me.

and i am hurting, because i know i have gave up and thus lost i a truely good friend.

time for an update

i only update my blog once a week now eh? so much for being free and complaining of boredom. haha guess there wasn't time, like proper blogging time, like now x)

shall start off with last friday! had a date with stella yo! haha, we met up after work at Marina Square, as we wanted to take a walk along River Hongbao. dined at swensens for dinner, and yar, it was satisfaction factor before price :P nevermind, 'cos i received my first pay cheque on that day! haha, it's pro-rated la, which means i only receive about half a month's of salary. haha, but it's okay (: caught up alot with her over dinner, and we shared our working experience thus far. quite interesting to hear some of her stories, haha. then after dinner, we set off in search of the exhibition area. lol, we were sort of lost? cos they was the chingay parade going on at the same time, so it was kind of confusing, haha. anyway chingay on that day felt so different live. not as exciting as on tv, hmm funny. after roaming about for a while, we managed to get there la. it wasn't that crowded as expected, to our surprise. but nah, no crowd better wat :P took some pretty photos of the exhibits there, with stella and i posing in some too. i am a failure at zi-pai though :P always end up cutting myself out of the pic, or stella. haha tsk. was never a cam-whore la, so can't blame me x) so we ended up requesting a few other people there to help us take. haha. speaking of pictures, i am supposed to send stella, which i haven't, even till 1 week later :P haha stella, if u are reading this, i will send it to u soon :)

some pics taken:

the entrance

in front of blossoms (i think)

posing with the horse (=us!)

a gigantic cow head! haha

uus! haha x)

God of Wealth!

ok, i started work at kindy this week. in other words, no more slacking, chatting on msn, and taking things easy while working. haha, ok it's not that bad as it sounds la, afterall work is more fun now :) i am mainly helping the secretary there. in other words, i am the assistant secretary? haha sounds cool eh. kidding :P this week was rather eventful, so it's a good start! anyway, this job will not get sian (for a newbie like me at least) because there are different tasks to handle everyday. even the same answering of phone calls is different because the messages relayed are different. lol. but not that i favour answering phone calls, haha 'cos some parents have accents that are hard to comprehend :P starting of with the easy stuff now, learning as i go. lots of things to remember. haha. trying to rmb the teachers names now! x)

anyway, this week the school is having it's cny celebration. haha, kindy children were supposed to come dressed in chinese ethnic outfits. and oh my tian! they are soooooo uber cute! haha x) was allowed to watch the lion dance performance put up, and took some photos with my phone.

lol.

and the next day, i went to watch the puppet show by the children and skit by teachers as well. haha cool! and i witnessed some office politics in action as well. more like i overheard, cos i was just outside the principal's office, and the door wasn't close! not my fault right? xP hehe. i thought of walking away, but was too kaypoh alr. it is also interesting to listen to the teachers conversation, haha they are 1 funny friendly bunch, thankfully :) etc etc

ok, i do miss my ex pals who are still scanning away. haha, but at least i still lunch with them :) haha and bethany wants my blog url, but i refuse to tell her :P anyway they are having fun la. got teabreak somemore! tsk! haha :P

ok now that my work is stable, i shall go do some v work maybe :) and i need to visit guitar lol!

prayers answered (:

thank the cranes? (:

whatever it is, i hope they will continue to bless sarah (:

continue to stay strong on your road to recovery!

happy niu year!!

have an ox-picious year people! =)

went around visiting for the past two days. great to see the relatives uncles aunties cousins nephews nieces again! haha, and not to forget the happy new year - collect hongbao routine :P pigged out on a lot of chinese new year goodies - pork floss roll (my fave!), kueh bualu, peanut puff/biscuit etc. bak gua and pineapple tarts are not on my list of faves haha. gambled a little too, been on a losing streak this time. haha, biggest win was during human jackpot. funny game. played only blackjack though. i wanna play mahjong, dai di, and bridge! haha x) kidding kidding

lots of conversations going on, and it gets very noisy at times. haha. my cousin is getting married this end may! woohoo! i lovee weddings! heh. anw, had a fun time playing with the little ones! super cute and adorable already, cannot stand it. haha. my favourite is Jyan, 5 years olds i think. he was super high yesterday! haha, he loves playing scissors paper stones, and came up with a water version?! haha. he can talk more now, so can communicate better also. ahh, i dun wan him to grow up! haha

my niece Clarice is very cute also. haha, she's fasinated by the dog, and goes around shouting 'baby where, where baby'. 2 years plus, thus her voice is very cute! i think the one that looks best is my cousin Andrew, 3 years old. he just gets cuter and cuter lol. just that he is quite antisocial lar, so can't play with him much.

children are just so cute!! haha my vocab is stuck at the word cute :P any other words that is synonymous to it?

met my cousin Matthew as well. hmm, didn't see him in a longg while. wanted to take a photo with him, but didn't get a chance too. didn't talk much either, like ask how's he doing and stuff. hope to see him again, this sat maybe.


ok, the festive period is like over already, even though it's only chu san. got lots of new year goodies left. lol. bring some to work? haha see how.


and oh guess wat! i was reliving my childhood just last week by watching the Lion King Series! i like totally forgot the story already. anw i love Lion King 1 and 2! awesome disney classics! the plot, characters, songs are all nice! and i realised it is only as you grow older, that you will understand the movie better, and when everything will make more sense. nonetheless, i should recommend it to the cute little ones! HAHA

shall share some nice music videos from the movie :)

Lion King 1 - Circle of Life



Lion King 1 - Can You Feel The Love Tonight



Lion King 2 - We Are One

1 week into work!

started work at OFS this monday! and for the first time in my life, i'm officially working and earning my own pocket money! lol. am hoping now that i will receive my first pay at the end of the month. haha x)

anyway, work so far is rather ok la. this week i basically had to help out with archiving of the students' records. apparently, they wanted all the records to be digitalised (accessible via the database in computer), instead of having to draw out and refer to the hardcopy all the time. so we are tasked with the duty of scanning all the data, page by page, and save them in the computer. lol. and i think i scanned about 30/40 files this week? maybe more la, since i am soo hardworking (ahem :P) anyway, scanning is boring la, but it allows one to refer to other sources of entertainment while working! like chatting online on msn (esp with kz, he's working also, and chatting like me, haha), watching movies/drama online, playing games etc. while enjoying music from 98.7 FM streaming from the internet. haha, quite slack la. then everyday, have to go down for bus duty, leading the students onto the bus. this one i like. lol. hmm for a day, i was posted to the kindergarten office to help out the secretary there. learnt quite a bit of the job there. this one cannot slack, but is more interesting then scanning, albeit more stressful too. haha.

so that's 1 week of work for me! my collegues/friends are pretty nice people. easy to get along (about the same age), so good for me :) haha. then for lunch, we either lunch at canteen (only once this week), or dine outside. let's see. i lunched at the coffee club in taka (mon), food court at lucky plaza (tues), canteen (wed), long john silver at cine (thurs), food court at taka (fri). how interesting lol. haha i am amazed at how they find their way around orchard. i am still directionless when it comes to orchard. must start committing to memory manz.

yay! long holiday up ahead! and i only start work on thurs! we are almost done with the scanning of files. and i hope that we don't have to scan anymore! cos i am sick of the computer. lol! btw, the whole school uses mac desktops O.O

okk, chinese new year is coming up! going for reunion dinner later tonight with the paternal side of my family. which means i can't go for class dinner =/ ah well, bad timing.

ohh stella found a job at moe this week! and she started work already too! haha happy for her :)

Save You - Simple Plan

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
It's drowning in a whisper
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh)

Hamsters =)

my experience with the cutest and most lovely pet one can have! haha =)

(all pictures are from internet btw, 'cos either my photos then were taken with outdated phone cameras that do not have brains to connect to the computers, or that i didn't bother taking. haha)

-PART 1 -

i had my very first hamster when i was in p6/ sec 1 i think. hmm, it was a brown and white Syrian breed (male).

While my sister had the pure golden one (female)

So, being first time owners, we were elated! haha. my very first home for the 2 babies (ok, not literally) was one with a red plastice base (yes, my love for red started way back then) and a white painted coated aluminum grill like cage.

along with the cage were a yellow plastic running wheel, a yellow food bowl, and a plastic drinking bottle. other stuff bought include sawdust and food (those mixed kind i think, with nuts, dried vegetable, corn etc)

ok as for actual hamster-rearing, the biggest hurdle (i reckon) would be daring to touch and carry the hamster at ease. took me some time getting used to, and also for the hamster to get used to you! oh, and you will also have to get used to cleaning the cage! (especially troublesome when they do not cooperate, lol)

for me, i named my hamster 'Pebbles' =) can't remember what my sister named hers. anyway, i enjoy 'playing' with them! haha, it's like i would take pebbles out of the cage and let it enjoy a moment of being cage-free. opps x) stroking it, feeding it, sometimes even chatting to it! and as i became less afraid, i would cuddle it in my palms, and try to induce it to sleep. haha. sometimes playing with them cheer me up and help me relieve stress, so i would usually try to set aside some time to play with them.

now for some interesting stuff that i learnt from my first batch of hamsters.

1) haha, my very first impression of them (when i got to keep them personally that is) was that they are one greedy bunch! omg, the way they can stuff endless food in the pockets of their mouth is just unbelievable. they look like they have 2 big tumours in both cheeks! lolz

2) hamsters shit anywhere, anytime (ok, maybe not when they are sleeping), and sometimes they would 're-eat' their shit. gosh, was quite disgusted la. read up a bit online, and realised that it's their nature to consume their faeces, as it is still considered nutritious.

3) while they shit anywhere, they tend to unrinate at a fixed spot, normally at one of the corners. haha, at least they are a tad cleanliness-conscious.

4) they seem to eat almost anything. fresh veggie like cabbage, carrot, green leafy kinds also. fruits like apple, pear. staples like bread, biscuit. even junk food like potato chips! sheez, not at all fussy. lol. oh, i remembered there was a time when they had an overdose of carrots, and their shit turned out to be orange. o.o lol, poor guys.

5) hamsters cannot live without grinding their teeth. learnt again that this is to prevent their teeth from growing too long. so basically, they will climb up the cage, hang on it vertically, and start biting on the grills, producing the typical metallic sound, while at the same time chewing off the white paint (argh!) made my poor cage rusty. haha. and even after buying the grinding dough for them, they still continue eroding the grills, making them all rusty -.-

6) the toilet roll is actually a very cool playing toy for the hamsters. very, very fun! you can create a maze for it too with the rolls! haha, but it's a no no if they are afraid of the dark :P

7) hamsters love to escape. they seem to find the exploration of the world outside their home their greatest adventure. lol. it's like the moment you leave the cage unlocked, hah! out comes the adventurous hamsters! and while they are out enjoying their exploration, here i am having a headache trying to find them. haha same for my family members. it's like they can be missing for up to a day! don't understand why would they want to leave the comfort of their home. haha x)

ok, i shall recount more about the life journey of my two hamsters =)

hmm, initially when i first had them, i couldn't tell their sex. cos you know, they weren't mature yet x) haha. basically, gender can be differentiated by their, erm, buttocks? for males only, they will have 2 pink kidney shaped organs (?) at their buttocks. lol. i think it's for sperm production. anw, i realised that only after some time, when they grew older. haha.

as for the life of a hamster, i think it is at least more exciting that that of a fish or tortoise (used to keep them too, haha) besides eating and sleeping, they exercise quite a lot too! the running wheel is like one of their favourite form of entertainment cum source of keeping fit. hmm, they fight sometimes too, which is usually quite obvious from the squeaking sounds that result. and usually, it is the male that gets bullied! LOL. ok la, they may not be fighting, maybe it is their form of playing with each other as well.

ok, so after a few months of getting to know each other, and as they grew older, they fell in love and decided that it was time to have offsprings. in other words, they started mating! at first, i never knew that was how they mated. but after a while, their actions made a little more sense (bio in lower sec?) haha. and watching them mate make me feels as though i am intruding into their privacy. hah. don't think i should describe their mating process x)

they mated quite a few times i think. and apparently, the sperm did get to the egg, but i didn't realise it. so the female got pregnant la, and somehow i didn't like feel that her stomach was becoming bigger. so anyway, after some time, she gave birth! buttttt, the babyhamster was stillborn or something :( i still remember how it looks like. it was shaped like a kidney bean, and i could vaguely make out the eyes, hands and legs. ahhh so sad! i only saw one, but i'm sure she gave birth to more. but i think she ate them up! 'cos at that time, pebbles was still in the cage. or maybe pebbles ate them too! argh! but most likely the mother saw pebbles as a threat, and decided to eat up her kids to 'protect' them. quite sad :(

after the pregnancy, she was kind of weak and stuff. probably had some after pregnancy complications as well (i am guessing a lot, haha). her health deteriorated after some time, and like any life cycle, she passed on. (rip female one) :( that was casualty no. 1.

after that, pebbles was all alone on his own. i'm sure he must have been quite sad too. both living in the same home, he must have guessed his partner has left him. probably even knew that she wasn't going to make it. yea, so sad :(

so pebbles had to endure loneliness, being all alone.

butt, we decided to bring in another companion for him :) haha. and this one presented us with a huge shock, but was a pleasant surprise!

-END OF PART 1 -

my tale of the cute little furballs =)

i need a job!!!

arghh. i am still unemployed :( recruit express is no good lar. lol.

someone employ me, please! =D

anw interview today was bad lar. no comments.


and i miss my 45 cents bus and mrt rides! suxxx

goodbye 2008, and hello 2009!

happy new year!

hmm, i am not so sure if i want to enter into the year 2009. not that i have the choice, of course.


anw 2008 had been an eventful year...


as i search my short-term memory, in a somewhat chronological order, 2008


- started with anticipation (at the beginning of the year),
- got me feeling about something that i did not feel about before,
- made me feel at a loss of what to do (my dilemma),
- showed me that time flies like the wind (and so do fruit flies like banana),
- taught me that the biggest hurdle in my academic life would be the A levels,
- put my time management skills and priorities to the test,
- saw me busying myself with guitar concert preparations,
- allowed me to spend fun times with stella and wai leng during lap (which i dearly miss),
- teased me a little too much,
- got me feeling very distracted and confused over something,
- gave me 2 As,
- marked the first time (and also the last time) i failed napfa (how i ended up tearing -.-),
- saw me surviving through common tests,
- gave me a sweet, yet not so sweet 18th birthday,
- proved that guitar revolved around my life (june hols),
- made me shut down my blog temporarily,
- elated me with my first formal performance in public (guitar concert!),
- concluded that guitar is the first CCA that i truely belong to (seniors' farewell),
- led up to a disappointment,
- saw me grumbling and lamenting alot about stepping down late due to early prelims,
- caught me loving the library too much,
- tricked me into believing i could forget,
- saw me sitting for prelims,
- gave me mixed feelings during farewell assembly,
- made me study and study and study,
- built up to the ultimate 'A' levels,
- gave me a finally 'free' life,
- had grad night, which was a night worth remembering,
- got me realising that i will miss my beloved class,
- allowed me to go out more often with evelyn,
- gave me the opportunity to do more of my random stuff (haha),
- made me relieve in doing nothing,
- got me thinking that i am a coward,
- gave me a new breakthrough with cycling (lol),
- confirmed what an awesome class i have (christmas bbq),
- accused me of stoning too much (LOL, only sometimes lor),
- made me realise that i need to change,
- saw me welcoming 2009 at home (:


yup, so that's about the highlights of my year. or what that's impt anw. haha. not bad right, can remember all that has happened! haha, if only i had such a superb memory la -.- referred to my archives for reference actually x)

ok, it's time to review my sole new year resolution in 2008. haha yea, i still rmb it :P
from my archives, it says "not to do anything that i'll be regretful of in the future"
hmm, so did i fulfill it?

i figure that it is better not to think about it. afterall, regret is not something that i can gauge well. it's like, you must have a clear knowledge of all the outcomes of the various path you take, before you can truely say which is the best for you. but however, life is not a game; time cannot be reversed, and it cannot be replayed. i can't possibly say that i would be better off if i chose the other option, or if i made a different decision. so, thinking hard whether i am regretting anything or not is pointless. wrong or right decision, i shall just accept it and move on (: no regrets whatever. haha, so that concludes 2008 =D

2009 - a year of uncertainty, freedom and new experiences

it will be a great year no doubt. no longer have to go through school routine. haha x) but then, it means i need to find a job. which sucks, 'cos i haven't found one yet -.- i think i am contributing to singapore's unemployment rate of i dunno how many percent. lol. giving home tuition seems to be the only viable option now. meanwhile, i am still uncertain of which course i want to take in uni. sian.

nvm, on a brighter side, if i don't get a fixed 5 day work week job, it means i can partake in other stuff (: that's part of being free, u noe x) haha. so see how it goes i guess.

ok, new year resolution for 2009:
CHANGE (:

new year wishes:
1) for my family to stay healthy and happy always (:
2) for sarah to get better
3) to remain close to my frens (:
4) to have a great start in uni life!

ok, now i feel abit better about 2009. haha.

i'm sure it will be A HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D