recap (:

haha yes! finished up with physics spa today, and chem spa last week, both skill A. which means, no more spa for the rest of the year! haha, coolness :P not that i hate practical la, just just i hate having to sit for a practical test. chem was pretty standard, spent the whole night before memorisng though, but at least actual spa was nothing out of the ordinary, so hoepfully can score. but for physics, felt so unprepared even as i entered the examination hall O.O the preparation wasn't as straightforward as chem sad to say :( had to sort of study smart, and make predictions. but even still, the uncertainty principle still applies; can't know exactly every single detail. anyway, what i wanted to say was physics spa skill A wasn't that good. opps. a level 6 at least, please. so now that practical is over, it's 4 periods of tutorial per week per chem and physics subject! yayness -.- haha, but i prefer tutorial to spa though :P

hmm napfa sucks as usual. and now, i can't jump either. arghh. what's wrong with me man. and yea, i ran 2.4 for the second time last week, only to fail again. not only again, but failed worse. nvm, i shall continue to perservere, like what charleen is doing too(: and perhaps listen to jennings and listen to my ipod while running. haha, if i still fail, then i guess it's fated that i shall not pass my last napfa.

this week was the test-filled week. apart from physics spa, had quantum 1 test on mon too, as well as econs and maths on fri. got back quantum test, did quite ok la(: as for econs, felt kinda hopeless at answering the questions, and wasted cos could not apply what i tried to study the day before. ahhh heck. then maths was erm quite ok? ahh shan't say too fast, lest i don't do well. haha.

and ya, this week is also the last week of cip casp with zhenghua kids for my class :( i will miss my tutee sarah; she's really hardworking and turns up for every session! and yea, these 8 weeks spent with her has increased my level of patience greatly, serious. i am also more motivated now in terms of teaching them. and when i see that they sorta grasp the concept and stuff, it makes all the effort worth it(: although 8 weeks is short, but i guess even a little goes a long way, i hope. i guess most of my class people don't really see the point of the cip, which is sad :( but i don't blame them, cos the attendance of the kids was really poor, and it got worse as it progressed (except for my kid, and some others of cos). so i guess they got quite frustrated having to waste their time there doing nothing =/ but i am still glad they put in their best effort, one way or another, and hope that they really do appreciate that helping others is a joy (:

ok, so guitar is having exam break now for J2s and IP4s in preparations for CTs. ahh, which means i am home before sunset for most days! haha, but i will miss the guitarists, my beloved section mates, juniors, fellow J2-ers. haha. and which means i will also get to see whom i want to see less :(

oh man, what am i doing here >( i should be mugging for CT which will start next next next week, which is 3 weeks from now! ahh! and i barely started on my preparations, which is bad :S and yes, i need motivation! and more determination! haha, i must start studying! :P

went out today(: so did not do much work today. ahh heck.

dun know what else to blog about. lol.

anw, just wanted to say jiayou to all(: continue to hang in there and don't give up, in whatever situation u may be in! (:


haha have a nice song to share again.



超喜欢你 - 飞轮海


心跳快得很可怕
呼吸大到有气压
手心冒汗可以浇花(可以浇花)
生活变四格漫画
喜怒哀乐被放大
身不由己没有办法(没有办法)

怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样疯狂
怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样爱超出了想像

就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧

想要对你说的话
身体由已替我表达
一旦爱了不能作假(不能作假)
一度觉得很头大
怀疑细胞有偏差
可是爱了没有办法(没有办法)

想我超喜欢你
是我放在心里好久的秘密
我不敢告诉你
甚至没有勇气说服我自己
我问一问上帝
要怎么突破我们之间的距离
站在原地是友谊
往前一步又怕吓到你
我号称黄金右脚横冲直撞
天下无敌自由来去
怎么踏进这个禁区
马上败在你手里

a week in 5 points

in an absolutely random order:

1) i failed my napfa -.- ahhhh wth la. failed 2.4 (expected it, afterall din really train much, but the horrid tears just came =/ haha guess i'm weak emotionally) and i actually failed situps too (was my last station, managed to D-ed the other 4, and when i realised i E-ed my situps, almost cried again -.- omg i am really really weak la, both physically and emotionally. bleagh.) and it doesn't help a single bit that _____ was being so unsympathetic and sacarstic to some extent la.
"it is obvious that you don't want to make this yout last 2.4" oh man, i will remember this sentence for life. not as though i din try, or that i purposely want to walk la; in fact, it was one of the best run i felt i had ran, but i still failed -.- stupid. and i seriously don't feel like retaking the whole thing next week :(
"of course. this is not the first time you are in NJ right?!"
wish me luck man.
but i resolve not to let this affect me anymore, emotionally(: haha

2) A for PW(: but wasn't exactly elated i guess. afterall, PW is such a pointless and unfair subject. ppl who dun deserve an A got A, while ppl who deserve an A din get A. anw, to say i dun care for the A would be hypocritical, so i am still glad i got it.

3) visited sarah at sgh together with praba today. had a hearty chat tgt after what seem a looonng time(: haha. glad she's feeling better now. but from her account, poor girl only got better these few days, can't imagine the pain/ suffering she actually went through for the past 3 weeks =/. hope the doctor can quickly come up with a diagnosis and treat her fast(: get well soon! oh ya, chatted with praba after what seem eons ago too. lol

4) guit's been fine, but maybe sth is still lacking from practices. sth that actually keeps the passion in guitar going. what is it? hmm...

5) the urgency of CT isn't getting to me. slacking is now my second nature. haha

alrights, i am off to slp.

i willed myself and took a step forward. but you seem nonchalent. but i still enjoyed your company, although it may mean nothing to you. and sharing my problems/feelings with you makes me feel better, although you did not offer me words of comfort. i am sure you don't know that even the tiniest bit of concern from you actually magnifies greatly inside me. show me more, won't you?

not a good weekend

confused.

distracted.

sad.

emotional.

heartache.

tired.

series of emotions that built up on something that happened on fri morning.

just felt that i needed to pen it down, to get a clearer picture of it myself...

so i was taking the bus in the morning, the bus came slightly later than usual, but that's not the point. the moment i boarded the bus, i had this strong feeling that he would board the bus too. not sure why, but part of it was because i knew it was one of the buses he could take too, and that i saw him in the bus once. not the point again. so while on the bus, i still felt that he was going to board the bus, and even envisioned meeting him while alighting. and of course, i thought i was crazy, making such silly hallucinations. anw, while the bus was about to reach (i was sitting on the upper deck), i got up from my seat earlier than usual, as i was still thinking i could meet him (after thinking so much bout it happening during the journey). and guess what? i really saw him! (or at least i think i did) i caught a glimpse of his face from the corner of my eye while alighting, and after that, i didn't dare to look back to check if it was him. (but i think it's him, cos the particular image keeps replaying in my head). come to think of it, i should have at least turned to say hi or sth, but i didn't. guess it was because i couldn't believe it actually happened. i mean, even though i was sort of anticipating it, but the odds were like so so low, that the moment it happened, i didn't know what to do. moreover, i couldn't face, for reasons that i'm not sure of either. and this means so much because it was also the first time i actually had this strong yet weird feeling that he was going to board the bus. really. it actually made me feel stronger and deeper for you. yet on the other hand, it may be just a coincidence, and i am just thinking too much. i really dunno :(
but i cant deny that i like you, though your oblivious attitude just cont to hurt me :(

guess i let you get the best of me...

still dun feel any better =/ haiz

another thing that made me so moody this weekend is that i miss stella :( and waileng too. din see them for lap last 2 weeks, which is actually the only time we can actually meet up and catch up. haiz. at least i still see kellie in gp class, but we seldom talk too :( haiz.

and sarah is worrying/ scaring me :( and the only little thing i can do now is to give her support
to sarah low:
hey! i know u will not be reading this. but do stay strong k? i'm sure u will recover soon, and we will meet up soon as well(: take care girl!