hectic

and so 1 week of sch has come and past. the week was pretty much slack, as the whole week was filled with only lectures. and we have like a lot of free periods now and then cos we don't offer that particular subject. this made me very sian, and my class would then proceed to the grandstand, which has no doubt become our favorite hangout. haha. then we would either mug, play ball or just stone. yea, this went on for the whole week la. so i was like damn sian of school. lol, anyway next week lessons start proper which means must chiong tutorial already =/ SIAN MANZ

guitar syf coming up on the 19th april. kind of nervous. went singapore conference hall for the rehearsal today. reached there at like 6 and ended practising out in the open cause the tuning room was not available. imagine one bunch of people sitting down and playing the guitar. haha! anyway, we played pretty well i guess. after which, at 8.30, we proceeded to the actual venue for the actual rehearsal. but we played like below standard =( seems like the change of venue made us more nervous i think. and i played quite badly too, sad la...

next week will be even busier i guess. guitar practice 4 times a week. and tutorials to catch up on. and doing maths tutorials makes me want to puke blood manz...

the song bridge over troubled water is currently stuck in my head right now. lol.

school reopens =(

term 2 officially starts today, and although this week is still rather slack, mostly lectures all the way, but i am already preparing myself mentally for the added workload that is to come soon. i sound really paranoid and kiasu, but can't be helped. and today i gave myself a big fright, 'cause the first thing i reached school i learned that quite a few people had started on their chem revision alr! and i was like 'OMG', 'cause i haven't started on any yet. then that was not the worse. as i checked the timetable for the week, i realised that chem 2nd lecture is like tml, and i panicked of course. considering that i reach home at home today, there would be like no time to study. so in the end, i borrowed notes from yihui and started mugging. haha, quite funny of course, but i am like that la. anw, only during chem lecture then the lecturer announced that chem test is postponed to thursday. tsktsk la. make me worried for nothing. haha, but also good la. sian, kind of regret not studying during the hols =/ amy, it's time to snap back to reality!

had guitar today and today's practice was a little different. our mentor [mr toh] brought in a professor or something to assess our syf pieces. however, it became more of a lecture on the history of guitar or something. like he started of talking about how we performed, then veered into his own world. haha, sounds funny eh? but anyway he shared with us some guitar techniques and tips as well, so all in all it was a good exposure (= and he mentioned something and scared most of us. about us getting trigger fingers [where the nerves in our finger are spoilt or something] if we wash our hands after practice or something. then everyone was like 0_0 !!! haha, even the teacher who plays guitar as well got a shock! haha.

sch tml again, and the one thing to look forward to is the early dismmisal (=

SCREWED

SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED
SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED



great. i screwed up the exam. horribly. but i've only myslef to blame.









and it's the stars that lie to you...

exhausted!

the past few days had been rather tiring manz. tuesday went for that workshop, then went back and forth from cathay and plaza singapura like dunno how many times to find stuff. wed went for guitar practice, then went orchard to shop for syf costumes, didn't manage to find any suitable though. yest[thurs] went for guitar bbq at east coast, and reached home at like 11.30. record for me manz... haha. so am super tired now.

today went from guitar again[ yes and know]. haha. can't be helped, we need the practice badly. went straight home after that and stoned for quite a while. just didn't feel liek doing anything. haha. then practiced guitar for about 1 1/2 hours to prepare for the exam, which is like tomorrow! and i still feel so unprepared! i only practised twice this week, once on tues and once today. so u can roughly estimate my proficiency level. haha. going to practise tml too though, but highly doubt it will be of any effect. so all in all, i need all the luck i can get tml manz. as in seriously, please let the examiners choose the easy pieces for me to play!! *prays damn hard* sigh... will leave all to fate. just hope won't fail the exam =/








all i need tomorrow is luck. badly.

rushed...

heard something from my junior(evelyn) today. she said that if you walk during mass run (in crescent) you will get a demerit + 20 push-ups! omg la! i never fail to walk during mass run when i was still in crescent. if this 'rule' was implemented a year earlier, i foresee that i will end up doing detention. haha.

went school for guitar practice today. practice until left fingertips are hurting and my right fingernail got chipped! haha, all in all had an enjoyable time during practice, excluding finger pain though. looking forward to next practice!

was almost late today, or rather i think i was 5 minutes late. lol. was like looking at my watch every minute or so in the bus, fearing that i would be late. in fact, i clearly thought i would be late, as i kept on noticing how jammed it was in front and how many red lights there were. thus, my whole journey was spent worrying. however, what's unusual is that i took about the same time to reach school as compared to other days, about 40 min. yet on other normal days, the thought of being late never struck me. partly because i usually end up asleep in the bus on school days where school starts at 7.40. this reminds me of what my chinese teacher once said. he said that when you are in a rush for time, the bus would seem to move very slowly, even though it may be travelling at normal speed. yet on the other hand, if you are not rushing for time, the bus would be moving at its usual speed. this sort of struck me. 'cos i never once thought of it that way. so in the bus, i was thinking to myself why was i worrying so much, when at the end i would still reach on time? why was i feeling all anxious and uneasy? hmm, i tried to take my mind off how fast the bus was travelling and just enjoy the scenery or watch tv mobile or sleep, but i failed. why is it that we can't stop ourselves from feeling rushed? i guess it's because we all have datelines to meet.

relating back to reality, it's all the same. everyday, we rush through life, for fear of lack of time. in fact, time is never enough. but why can't we just put the time factor out of our minds and just enjoy what we are doing? why must we always be binded by the time constraints put to us? if there wasn't the time factor, would the outcomes be the same as before, or would it be different? if it is the same, why must we rush through it and miss out the enjoyment of it all?





will these questions ever be answered?

SIAN

today's another boring day for me. haiz... realised that there aren't any nice tv programmes to watch nowadays, or is it because tv no longer interest me? hmm, not that i care anyway. spent majority of the time today doing tutorials and more tutorials, however, i did not even complete any! that's how PRODUCTIVE i am man. haha. have to buck up, otherwise the homework pile will never disappear. lots of catching up to do this hols i guess.

i realise i have nothing much to blog about :( haha, SIAN la!





no matter how hard i try, it's to no avail...

sad :(

oh ya, forgot to mention. my class is not going to stay as a class :( damn sad man... so much for being happy about everyone being able to stay in nj :( sian man... worst of it all, it was like totally unexpected. so the first thing on fri when we checked the classes, i was like shocked to hear that some people were posted out! omg la! haiz... gonna miss them, especially stella!

why must things turn all this way?

tiredd...

just changed to the new google account. the features are quite cool i must say, haha. anyway, just had this sudden motivation to do all this stuff, as in change my blog and stuff. decided to abandon my previous blog because i have no reason why either. lol. hopefully i will have the time to update and maintain this blog and not let it rot away again. haha. it always happen to my previous blog and i always end up forgetting the most basic things - my username! omg la! that's how OFTEN i update my blog man. haha.

feeling pretty sian nowadays... no idea why :( it's like there's something lacking in my life, and i just can't find what's missing... if this goes on, i am pretty sure i am gonna need a psychiatrist soon man! omg! i think i'm being much too paranoid once again... haha. but i hope that this sianess will go away soon, if not i think i will die man.

jc life so far has been pretty much slack. but after the holidays, the pace is going to be much more hectic i guess, as forewarned by many of our teachers. maybe the busy life hectic will leave me with no more time to think and think about my empty life, and yea, just numb myself. will it? i guess i will get the answer in a week's time.

as mentioned, school hols are here again. lol. mon, wed, fri have guitar practice from 9 to 1. something to look forward to no doubt. but then, haiz, made a wrong mistake which probably irritated/upset some people. sorry! haha, should seriously never try that again. once bitten, twice shy! and guit bbq on thurs, no idea if i should go. see first bah.

blogging is fun, yet boring. paradoxical eh? haha



sometimes it's a facade that i put on...