great week =)

and i don't get this often! haha

wed:
went back nj for guitar again :) this time with caiyun, and met some seniors there too! haha debby is still the same old debby! (no lawyer look yet hehe) chatted a bit with them, den listened to their comments for the ensemble, which i find rather useful and applicable, hopefully the ensemble really take them seriously. listened to juniors grouses abt playing the same 2 songs over and over again and how mundane/ boring/ stagnant practices have become (which reminded me of my syf days, lol) ah well can't be helped, that's syf for everybody. jiayou k ppl :) just 1 more mth! and dinner another day k, debby! haha :)

thurs:
the day i went broke. LOL. ok la, not really. treated kz to dinner and ice cream after work. lousy me lost my bet, so i owed him a treat. haha. but still, i am nice right :) ahahahaha. dined at yoshi first (his idea of helping me save money, when it is more of saving tummy space for ice cream -.- lol) den went to swensens for ice cream. sinfully delicious (what to do, haha) anw half the time he was sms-ing la. i know i am boring la k. lol.

fri:
took a day off from work to go play mahjong! (talk about being broke eh, ahaha) played with jamie, mar and nic goh at jamie's house. quite a noob at it la, but i still won! lol but not using real money la. den when mar left, it was still early, so we played the 3 player one our style! LOL, quite fun also la. jamie fed us with food too! haha thx girl :) after mahjong, it was still early, so went amk hub to play a little of arcade with nic goh. bad choice, cos i jus wasted his money since i suck at it. ahahaha. den he went home, and i went to meet stella for the networking session. it was pretty informative, and i guess i have to be mentally prepared for the road ahead.

today:
audition-ed in the early early morning. haha not crazy dun worry ;) slept. went library in the afternoon to pay my fines LOL. borrowed 2 general ref books. all the good fiction books are on loan, as always. ok la, not that i have any books on mind anyway. haha.

so ya, had a great week! :)

and yea, hang on sarah low!


hmm, sometimes, i think i read into things too much...
but somehow i have got this weird feeling that u are putting on a facade.
and yet, there's nothing that i can do about it.
and it sucks.
but if it's true, and if u consider me as a friend,
help me help u.

holland village!

met evelyn for dinner on friday night, at guess where??

LOL Holland Village!
soo near where i live haha.

anw we went to this ipoh hor fan restaurant to eat. and i dunno why i ate curry chicken noodles instead lol. chatted with her over dinner, and helped her with some maths qns. which i wasn't much of a help actually. haha x)

after dinner, went for a walk around hv. to show evelyn just how, erm, interesting it is. HAHA. ok la, even though i stay near hv, i haven't really explored the whole of it yet. went to the 2 shopping centres first, where most shops are already close (even though it was just 7 plus). den went to cold storage (it's tt interesting, see) haha. den it was still early, so headed to some of the branching lanes (no idea wat to call that). along 1 lane, there are alot of different restaurants (like really, it's a food haven). haha, some of which i didn't even know existed O.O so it's a great place for dining and chilling out afterwards. den the other lane got like pubs and bars and stuff, with lots of foriegners. continued walking around a little after that, nth much la. den went for a last stroll in cold storage (it's 24 hours u noe ahahah). den sent evelyn home on her bus! haha :) ok la, still had a fun time, although i am jus more convinced at how interesting it is, man. haha.

ok, my weekends have jus come and gone. soo fast. work tml again! haha. but next week gonna be fun though, i hope! :)


'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there


stay happy! :)

ooo la laaaa ~

i am updating, finally. haha.

results are soo yesterday. my grades are, well, average. decent enough to get into the course i want, which is not all that competitive though, considering that i am applying for enrolment in the faculty of science at nus. haha, but i am still thankful for my results, for it could have been much worse. so ya, i am satisfied :) no regrets for one, as i really did put in my utmost effort in preparing for it, although time was a little tight then. however, i am a little puzzled at how cambridge markers mark and grade the scripts. haha, just weird. anyway, congrats to my friends who did well too! :) and to the dearest ones that didn't, i will pray hope wish that you can get into your desired course, and from there, just forget that A levels ever existed. heh ;)

the next important thing after results would be applications to universities. did not have much of a headache deciding which course i want, as i had already sort of made up my mind to undertake a degree relating to maths, since like 6 months ago or so. and now, i am still pretty keen on it. not really interested in other courses, except maybe psychology or statistics (lol). i considered business too, but i don't really find it interesting. law and medicine are my past ambitions, but my grades will deem me ineligible, even if i want have a go at it now. ahaha. ok so, my desired course now would be Applied Mathematics at NUS FOS. and contrary to what many think, i do not aim to be a math teacher! lol, i can enter other professions you know. i am thinking of actuary actually. haha, if not, i will just apply my maths to other fields. lol, i make it sound so simple -.-

visited smu open house last week. haha, for fun, and to accompany stella :) attended some talks, visited booths, blah blah. didn't get a chance to explore the whole campus though, cos it was raining, resulting in the campus tour being kept on postponed indefinitely -.- ended up getting stuck at the admission building. haha. then i went for nus open house earlier today (when everybody is at ntu, i choose to think) lol. almost went alone, but went with NG instead and met his friend (my ex pri sch classmate) TK. i still remember him, though he doesn't. zzz. haha. anyway, attended the talks, which were quite boring. went straight to the maths booth at FOS, and asked a few questions. walked around a little. blah blah. then met evelyn and her ac seniors for dinner. ok la, chatted with them a bit, nice people :) caught up a little with evelyn too :)

ok anyway, i finally went back to guitar to visit! haha, it's been sooo longg. heh. heard them playing their 2 syf pieces, and it was not bad la. haha :) in fact, i am impressed that all of them memorised their score! haha coolness, since the fingering and notes are not all that easy. talked to some of the juniors, and ya, it's great seeing them again :)

went for free nus genus concert yest night with ex guit mates. haha. it was not too bad, revolving around japanese themes. of all the songs, i like the song 'part of your world' best! lovely song! the 2 songs put up by the niborii ensemble were also great! haha, genus mayy be my future cca! see how it goes ;)

other than that, it's work work and work. not too bad, still working with kids. my kid got his own shadow teacher already, so now i am more or less a relief teacher covering classes for assistant teachers. got to go to different classes, which means working with different lead teachers, which means having to remember more names of kids. lol, a test of my memory.

on a side note, facebook is flooding my mail even more so now -.-

and it became more awkward =/
maybe i regret
everything i said
no way to take it all back...

maybe i'm just an overreacting piece of shit.

but how could you even act nonchalent to it all?
when i am struggling with this facade i put up, trying to shrug of everything as though i can't be bothered, when it is actually causing me so much discomfort.
now, i am fully convinced that things can't go back to normal.
there is too much awkwardness, embarassment, regret, resentment and i don't know what else between us.
yet, i still have to face you, acting as though it was just all a big joke then.

god, how when why did things even turn out like that? :(

how i wish i could believe nic goh, believe that i could turn back time...

but then again, maybe, subconsciously, i wish that i could just do it my way.

another weekly update.

this is to avoid incoherence in my post. so i am listing one by one. haha.

1) happy birthday, mummy!

2) i received my 2nd pay on friday (:

3) i got myself a haircut.

4) on wed after work, went to visit kellie at the jap restaurant she's working at with stella and waileng. we were (almost) lost. LOL, we were like soo relieved when we finally found the place. turned out that we were either looking in the wrong direction, or we had had our eyes plastered with stamps such that we missed out on 1 big indicator. haha. anw i had a nice and delicous bowl of ramen, charsiew with miso soup. yum! caught up on alot with both of them, and saw the professional side of kellie. haha. all in all, had a great night (:

5) i almost lied/ feigned ignorance to cover my mistakes twice! \

first occasion: i was supposed to bring the class down to forest playground, and i wasn't very sure where, but i didn't want to ask the teacher (trying to be smart aleck, haha) okk, so what happened was i took the longer route. after walking for a while, i turned around to check on them, only to realise that more than half of the kids were gone! lol, u bet i panicked a little. we're talking about kindy kids here, no joke. ok, so i hastily retraced the route i took. couldn't find them. so i went back to class to find the teacher. told her half the class was missing. jus imagine the somewhat look of horror/shock on her face. opps. then here comes the test of my character:
her: which way did you go? down this way? (referring to the route which i didn't take)
(i was like omg, i took the wrong route. ok, so i was thinking, could i say yes, could i say yes? shit, what will happen if i say no? lol) after thinking for what i would reckon 1-2 seconds,
me: oh no. i went this way (pointing towards the route i took)
phew! at that moment, i was quite glad that i didn't lie. lol.
anw, guess what? the missing kids were at the playground alr. apparently one of the kids knew the place and she just did not follow my lead and went off herself, with the others behind her following. lol, and she got a scolding by the teacher! oh my, i felt kinda bad. haha

second occasion: a rather michievious boy asked me for permission to visit the toilet to wash his hands after snack, and i granted him permission.
mrs G: who's food stuff are these, not cleared?
me: oh, it's J's. (we call him J, no idea why) he went to the toilet.
mrs G: again! without permission! mrs C, J went to the toiler again without asking permission.
me: (lol great, i granted him permission. but i kept at that instance)
mrs C: *shakes head* you see, he never learns! always not listening to instructions, and doing things on his own.
me: (oh my, u better say it) oh, actually he asked me for permission, and i let him go.
phew again! anw, i found out that J has behavourial problems, so the teachers are rather particular about him being in the toilet (he plays in the toilet, along that line)

ok, in both instances, i wasn't scolded. quite thankful that i didn't lie (in the end), although i did comtemplate doing it. think it's because i am not used to making mistakes, so i never really had to admit to one. lol. guess i am learning now. being a person with integrity, yea!

6) when Pranav crys, he is inconsolable. he's becoming more temperamental. he cried twice; once cos he wasn't allowed to swim (down with bad cold. and he's still in sch?! lol) the other because he wasn't given a lollipop. think a special needs specialist is coming down to observe him tml.

7) had book character parade in kindy on thurs! cos it was book week, haha. all the kids came dressed up in their favourite book character. and yes, u bet they were all very cute and adorable!

ok, work tml again.

FRIDAY!