it's the holidays! =D

yay our 1 mth break has started!
haha dunno what to expect out of it, except for more guitar, outings, shopping and mugging? ahh can't really get myself in the mood for mugging actually. it's like, there's no push, motivation and i dunno wat else. haha. sian diao -.- and my tv is spolit! what luck! haha

anw, i think i'm starting to feel better. i think. but.. i dunno. it's hard, harder then i imagine it to be.

and they dun understand :( but i don't blame them, cos i dun understand it myself either.

they were at it today again. but at times like this, hard to take jokes. sorry if i over-reacted. haha

but am trying my best not to over-react...
cos i'm afraid,
in the midst of fighting back my feelings,
i'll end up hurting u :(
if anyone is to get hurt, i would rather it be me than u...

anw, the guitar exam group will be taking their exam on thurs! omg so near!! after all their practices for the past months, please please let them do well (:
ahh pretty scared for them =/
jiayou guitarists! <3

cts are over! (:

dreaded CTS are over, over, over!!

haha, felt so short yet so long. and the papers were... ahh no comments -.-

so ok past few days were spent fruitfully trying to unwind myself from all the accumulated stress(: and as all would agree, a well-deserved break. thank god that my papers ended early, like on tues. if not, would have foregone the past 2 free days. haha

so tues after physics went for sushi buffet at cine's suki sushi for class outing. haha ate our fill there i guess; gotta make our money worth! den after lunch deliberated for so long on where to proceed next. haha the usual guy girl can't mix well thing again. could tell that the guys were like trying to please us by following where we wanted to go. but we, being girls, could hardly be bothered bout them :P we would rather shop around by ourselves in that sense. haha, and as expected, the guys gave up soon after :P

den on weds, went out on a date with stella! haha decided not to go for class outing cos din realy like sentosa :P haha. anyway, we went to sing out hearts out at kbox! haha, just had the sudden urge to sing :D enjoyed every second of it! haha and the dui chang for both girls to sing is damn cute and funny! so after singing till our voices were hoarse, we went shopping! for like the whole afternoon! haha though din buy anything, but it was still damn shuang(: and finally get to catch up with her after so long! haha should have another lap outing tgt with waileng also!

haha real sorry and paisey that i din wait for u ah evelyn!

today was ok as well. went library around noon. i was pretty bent on going i guess even though i went there aimlessly (as i did not have any book in mind) haha. so went there and browse for quite a while, before finally deciding on what to borrow. and as usual, all the popular books are on loan :( anw after that, went back to sch for junior's guit prac. helped out a little, but wasn't really much of a help la i find. i am more lost than they area :P but the song quien sera just gets people swaying! haha.

so post-ct period was great(: if only life could stay as carefree as now. ahhh, if only. nvm, just 6 more odd mths and we'll truely be free!

feeling hurt.


my mind is in a whirl now.
what you did today hurt me, like never before.
so much for being excited to see you after so long, why must you end my day like that :(
yea, so your diary has a big red heart on it. did you purposely let me see it?
and yea, you would rather talk to our guit girl juniors than talk to me. do u really dislike me?
and you would rather wait with zz who take diff bus from you den board the bus with me today. were you trying to tell me something? trying to tell me that you do not like me?
my gut feeling tells me that you are, as much as i want to deny it.
yet all of these could amount to nothing but mere thoughtless actions on your part.
ahh just how much i hate guessing your intentions :(

every now and then, i can't help but questioning myself whether i really like you, or is it jus another phase of my teenage life. although i think i do, but fact is i really don't know. but yet, i can't stop myself from liking you, as much as i want to. and i don't even have the courage to face you properly now. how i wish things weren't like that :(

and my gut feeling tells me again that you know about it. after being teased and all time and time again. and if it's true, it's either u dun believe it, or u are trying to reject me. somehow, after today, i believe it's the latter.

yea, it's not the first time that you hurt me so. and every single time, i wonder if u ever thought of how i would feel. but i guess u won't. and what sucks most is your attitude that always changes. at times, u treat me ok, yet at times, u treat me as though i'm non-existent. but then afterall, i guess i mean nothing to u. nothing. u din even bothered to wish me on my b'day, although i was hoping u would today, no matter how belated it will be. but u didn't. don't u noe that u are the one person that can make my day? all i hoped for was just 2 simple words from u, but u just had to forget. or maybe u just didn't noe ):

maybe this is not meant to be afterall. maybe it's just pure wishful thinking on my part. maybe it's time i reeled in my emotions. maybe.

and it's times like this, that make me hate myself more than i hate u.

if you can't hold on, let it go and come back in your heart...

perhaps i should just bury my emotions deep in my heart.

sweet 18 (:

18 on the 18th! how cool :D

really thankful for all the well-wishes(: received the most this year (although it's not exactly a lor la), but still i feel very blessed! especially those who wished me on the dot! thx for just remembering, really(: so even though i didn't celebrate much today cos had to mug, i still felt very happy((: at least there are people out there who bothered about my existence (haha i sound emo). ok maybe not to that extreme, but at least i know i have a bunch of frens who will always be there(: love all of you loads <3 keep in touch always!


but then, you forgot :( which upset me a little.

haiz nvm, the others more than made up for it (:



haha and i make a groundbreaking discovery today!! unbelievable! hahahaa





so it's a memorable day all in all, and i'm 18! woots!

there can be miracles when you believe(:

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11/05/08
HAPPY B'DAY DEBBY AKA DA-BI ((:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TOO <3

haha good to listen to such motivating and inspirational songs during this period of time :P and yes, common tests are in 4 days time. can't wait for it to be over, seriously. kinda sick and sian of studying alr :( i hope to do well (who doesn't la), but yet am afraid of hoping too much, to avoid disappointing myself even more. ahh well, we will see what happens.

anw, past 2 weeks came and past; nothing significant that happened, or rather nothing that my failing memory can remember, haha.

main reason of this post is do some publicity for njc guitar ensemble concert(:

there will be two concerts:

1) String Theory - Picaresque of Love
Venue: Ngee Ann Kongsi Performing Arts Theatre (NJC)
Date: 11 July 2008
Time: 7.00 pm
Price: $8.00

2) String Theory - Viaggio de Musica
Venue: Esplanade Recital Studio
Date: 24 July 2008
Time: 7.15 pm
Price: $16.00

apparently, if you purchase the esplanade concert ticket, you will get a compimentary entry to the in-house concert too! and in case if you are wondering, the focus of the 2 concerts will be different, so it will not the exact same thing you will be watching.

and btw, string theory, in our context, has nothing to do with physics!
what it really means:
as quoted from njguit's blog
"String Theory":
When the guitar plays, it speaks of emotions and stories from the one who sees and feels them."Theory" signifies the complexities of emotions, which is is subtlely conveyed through the strings of the guitar.
((:

yup, so that's our bi-annual concert. if you are interested, let me know, fast! (:


till then, i'm sure CT will be a breeze. haha ya right -.-